i used to go to a shrink once upon a time in life...probably i used to go to him to get pills to make life easy, or seem easy...yeah it sure helps, i bet it helps all of us who have been there or passing through the phase...

and then i decided enough was enough, i didnt need a shrink, or pills to make life seem better...so i went back to the guy and asked him to stop the medicines...and told him that we cant take meds all our life to go through it, we have to do it on our own...he helped me out and then one day when i had pretty much stopped all my necessary pills, i stopped going to him...cliches and BS apart, in truth i did it for myself...because i wanted to find the strength which i had, for going on...

at times everyone's life goes hay-wire and we all want a shortcut out of the mess...but then the past cant be changed, you have to decide on your own, that life no matter how lousy, is still your life...you have to finally wake up, and realise that the past is what it is going to be, your cant change either, yeah amensia does sound fun, but thats hoping for a lot...and probably there will never be anyone in your life to slay your dragons...you do have to slay them your own self...

sometime back i went very near to the edge of the cliff...and i almost went back to my shrink...it was like you are facing your ghosts to lay them to rest forever, and they rear up on you...and i so wanted to go to my shrink, thankfully couldnt, wrong place, wrong time...to get the meds which makes life seem better...and someone at that time give me some truth...not welcome off course, truth is never welcome when you are blue...she told me to get over it, and everyone has their own crosses to bear...at that time i didnt get it...but after a couple of days, when i did think about it, i realised the truth of those words...probably those words drew me out of the well i could have fallen in...and i am thankful that i didnt...

to that person-thank you for those words...i probably needed to hear them...

living is sometimes not easy, and whose better to know than someone who has been there...and but then you have to decide...there is actually never a pill for a good life, or one to make life go away...you have to deal with on your own...

WW

p.s.->believe me me there isnt a pill for it...even though your spam mail box says it is... ;-)