another busy sunday. kid is coming for dinner and bringing his new gf over. it snowed last night and i have no desire to go anywhere.  so now i must get the house in some form of order i guess, and get dressed. but all i can think about is my secret crush and wonder if he thinks of me at all.  maybe i find out someday.  will be wondering until i can see him again.  i want to get him alone in the car so we can talk with out being interrupted by someone, or something. i just need to know if he wants me ........the not knowing is so hard.  but then again do i want to know and spoil the fantasy i have of him and i ?  maybe just finding out is worth it.  guess time will tell....