last night my fiancé brought home some news that when I heard it, I almost had a stroke on the spot.

Now I must add that I already don't sleep at night because we don't have burglar bars on our house yet, I listen to every single sound, where it comes from and check the doors every 2 hours or so.

we live in a secure complex a really big piece of land surrounded by 12ft walls with security cameras on every lamppost and inside little blocks of flats each with their own set of walls aswell, at the entrances of the outside wall there are security guards that stop every person and car that enters - if you don't live here and you can't prove who you're visiting you can't get in.

Now last night the news was that the people from the informal settlement a.k.a "plakkerskamp" (its a piece of land where black people - mostly illegal immigrants and other black people live in shacks but the police can't drive them out etc. because a "plakkerskamp" is known as the MOST DANGEROUS place to be in south africa. they are brutal and people don't even drive past them) complained about the blocked access to our houses WHAT FUCKING FOR? so they can come and steal and rape and murder to their little hate filled hearts content?
The best of all is the government or local municipality said yes take away the security guards!

Now I will never sleep!!! DO YOU PEOPLE KNOW BLACK PEOPLE'S FAVOURITE WAY OF KILLING AFRIKAANS WHITE PEOPLE?
They tie the wife up on the bed and the husband on a chair next to the bed then they rape the wife and bash her head in with a hammer all while the husband is forced to watch.
Only then they take the hammer and bash his head in aswell.
HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FUCKING SLEEP????

I am so sick of this fucking country and its criminal government with its criminal friends running around the streets.
Every month 80 000 prisoners in SA are released because the prisons are too full.
Rapists, Murderers, Robbers you name it they get released and no one bats an eyelid.
And evey month at least a quarter of them get thrown back in jail for the same crime now what the fuck does that tell you?

About a month ago we had a what they called xenophobic attacks on illegal immigrants in the informal settlements where SA's black people killed the zimbabweans and the nigerians everyone in the informal settlement.
They set them alight with petrol and chopped them up with hammers and axes with whatever weapon they could find.
The police waited on the outskirts or next to the road (most informal settlements are bigger than some south african towns) to scared to go in they arrested those that were withtin reach from the roadside because going in there would have been suicide.

Now my point with that is they are so brutal that they kill their own kind how can I not be afraid?

I am not a racist, I consider myself as careful. When I see a black person I treat them like normal people, I give to the poor and I socialise with them at meetings and functions but some of them just have that animal look in their eyes, that evil look that the one had when he held a AK47 to my mothers head - twice.
I will never forget that look.

Well this is not the last of this I am sure that I will remember something I didn't rant about and then make another one.