"Good morning, the night is over and gone.
I thought once, the dark would last for so long.
Feel Your Sunrise on my face, You have brought me
through this place......" You Led Me-Barlowgirl
I woke up today frustrated, as usual. I didn't get much sleep. My dreams were vivid and consisted only of B. My husband lay next to me. My puppy lay sprawled out all funky at my feet.
But this time, I know that there will eventually be a Dawn, when it wont be hard for me to deal with this anymore. B and talked last night, and it finally came out. We spoke of our feelings for each other, how important it was to set firm boundaries...and how much we desperately needed each others friendship.
The Bible says if your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. Now, I know that there may be some here that aren't Christian, and I thank you for your tolerance to my beliefs, the same I show to yours. I'm deeply moral-but this is one thing that even whispering about it can cause great pain and destruction in my church after all it's been through. I must be careful how I proceed.
B and I have made a compromise to be great friends, keep boundaries, and hold each other responsible-but more emphasis on the boundaries. No sitting next to each other, or talking late at night, or text messaging incessantly to each other from across a room, or bringing each other gifts....
how relieving and heart breaking at the same time.
And now, *deep breath*, sniffle up my cold(-.-), and I'm headed to work. The most painful part? The fact that I'm painfully aware that he is already up and on his way to work as well.
