I believe Lucytorial or someone said that my posts have alot of negativity in them.  I know the reason for that is usually because at least one person has thrown some at me for that day.  I don't want to be a negative being.  If people didn't mess with me so damn much I would be typing in pleasant thoughts about life and love.  Hell, I know that there is a man that I love.  We hurt each other in different ways when we were communicating with each other.  This has caused me to conclude that we are better off without each other, despite the fact that there is a part of me that would like to snuggle him.  I don't think that we will ever see each other's good sides.  I still keep fucking up.  I said something, calling his wife a sucker the other day.  Next thing I know a car passes by with a guy that reminds me of him in the passenger seat.  All I saw were those beautiful eyes looking so sad or surprised.  Poor baby.I don't know what to think.  He makes me want to run my fingers through his hair and place his head upon my chest.I hope that it wasn't him because I'm not trying to hurt him.  I just worry that he would hit his wife like he hit me when we were young.  A part of me is also disappointed that he is married to someone other than me.  It's ok though.  I want him to be happy.  I have lived this long without him.  Part of me loves him.  Another part of me is very pissed at him.  Then there is the other part that is afraid of him.  I know that it wouldn't work anyway, for that reason.  There.  MAJOR HONESTY!!!!!!