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I've always been more of a dog person than a cat person.  Cats seemed a little more aloof than what I wanted in a pet.  But, 14 years ago we became the owners of a cat that changed my mind about the species all together. 

My oldest was 5 years old at the time this kitty came to be in our lives.  My son named the kitten George Washington.  Well, the cat must not have liked that name and refused to come when called.  I'm not sure how but over the first few weeks of life with our new kitty, his name evolved from George Washington to Skibby-Doo, and finally landed on simply Kibbie.

Kibbie is unlike most cats.  I've watched people who literally hated cats fall in love with this feline immediately.  It is almost as if his mission in life is for people to love him.  Kibbie holds fast to his cat-nature of "I believe I'm better than you" and "You think you own me but in reality, I own you!" but he was still different than any cat I had ever owned or met.   He shows affection by climbing up and  rubbing his face to yours while purring.  We like to say he is aggressive in his affection.

Kibbie has been losing weight for a month now.  Several weeks ago, he had a bad tooth and it didn't want to heal after being pulled.  Now he has stopped eating and the weight is dropping off him faster than I can bear to watch.   We thought he wasn't eating because his mouth was sore. 

I just got an email from my vet friend that said he has detected some problems with a kidney and his liver and to prepare myself for bad news, the bloodwork would be back tonight. 

Growing up, we always had animals.  My parents loved them as much as we did but in our home, we understood animals were animals.  We learned a healthy respect for the cycle of life where animals were concerned.  I know Kibbie is a cat but I will still miss him as he has become a trusted friend and companion.   God has not made a cooler cat than this one.

Kibbie

EDIT:
Kibbie was put to sleep this morning.  I do not know the time because I didn't want to be present for that part.  I went to the office with Scooter Bug and oddly enough - my ex-husband to say our final goodbyes.  Kibbie had started having seizures during the night.  When we saw him, he was awake but in very poor shape.  My dear friend (and Kibbie's vet) said the tests came back and it looks like feline leukemia that had spread to his liver and kidneys.  Six weeks ago his bloodwork was fine so once the cancer started spreading, it went quickly. 

Scooter Bug handled it well.  I had my doubts because he doesn't let things roll off as well as most people.   Scooter Bug handled it just fine.  I was okay too, having had my crying fit in the privacy of my own home earlier. 

I will be back later to respond individually. 
Thanks everyone for your thought and encouragement. 





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  • MissMimi said on Nov 07, 2008....
    {{{{{{fearing}}}}}}  They really burrow into our hearts fast, don't they?  You'll know when the time comes, fearless.  I'm so sorry.  This is a hard thing to watch them suffer and to realize what the most merciful thing to do is.  Poor kitty.  My heart goes out to you. 
  • fearing said on Nov 07, 2008....
    MissM, Thank you so much for you thoughtful words.  They really do get into our hearts fast.  I can tell myself "he's just a cat" but in truth, he is part of my family and life.  I appreciate your friendship.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Nov 07, 2008....
    I'm so sorry that you've lost Kibbie.  I know how some animals can make themselves at home in your heart, and when they're gone you miss them something fierce.  I'm sure he's floating on a cloud enjoying a catnip treat. :)
  • cuppajava said on Nov 07, 2008....
    with having one myself - I know what you mean.I can also sympathise.Mine is almost 6 years old and had hepatitus in the middle of this year.I thought he was going to die.
    I do know what you are going through though - god speed
  • Alyss said on Nov 07, 2008....
    {hugs} for you and Kibbie.
  • Hegemone said on Nov 07, 2008....
    Aww I'm so sorry to hear about this fearing.  No matter whose animal it is, always breaks my heart to hear bad news.  I hope your little kitty is at least peaceful at this point, knowing you all love him very much.  He looks like a beautiful boy from that picture, lol, and I can see that 'I'm better than you, oh and I own YOU' attitude in his face.  Kinda looks like a tough guy.  He reminds me of my big orange kitty.  He's the king and nothing goes unless he says so.  He's actually turned quite a few cat-haters, at least they've made an exception for him and play with him... although maybe it's because he sort of plays like a dog.  Anyways, prayers go out for you and Kibbie.  
  • travelr712 said on Nov 07, 2008....
    sorry to hear about the sad news fearing. this is the type of cat that the sphynx is modeled on.
  • beyondtheveil said on Nov 07, 2008....
    So sorry, fearing. It doesn't matter what kind of animal it is, the love's the same. 
  • Lucytorial said on Nov 07, 2008....
    Fearing ~ Kibbie will always be a part of the family, pets are not so much pets are they.... not when they sink deep into our hearts.  hugs for your kitty cat.
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Nov 07, 2008....
    I am sorry to hear about your loss... 

    I understand and I sympathize...  I recently lost both my cats... 

    That's all I can say for now.  I'm afraid the wound is still quite fresh. 
  • evil_twin said on Nov 07, 2008....
    I'm sorry about your kitty :-( Our cats are more than just animals living with us, they're our babies. So I'd be heartbroken to lose any of them. I've had to put down a few cats over the years and it's never an easy thing, even if you know it's the best thing for them. I'm sorry...

    -evil_twin LA
  • wombat said on Nov 07, 2008....
    Sorry to hear about your beloved pet being so sick.  I'm more of a dog person, but I know the feeling when I lost my Dobie.  A part of the family is part of the family, no matter how many legs.
  • gingersoul said on Nov 07, 2008....
    Fearing....i lost my beloved cat Allie last year due to her leukemia....it has been a very sad day putting her to sleep and leave her there at the vet ...

    I am sorry for you and Kibbie.


  • silver_phoenix said on Nov 07, 2008....
    fearing- i love cats and your Kibbie sounds like a really great one :-D

    best of luck on the blood results! just keep up the lovies and Kibbie will love you more for it.
  • queenparanoia said on Nov 08, 2008....

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    it's sad but it's a part of life. thanks for sharing kibbie. i hope it's nothing serious...

  • pusscat said on Nov 08, 2008....
    Oh fearing - I am so sorry to learn you have had this news.  They really do change your life don't they and your view of it?  My hubby said he would never have a cat after the 'monsters' that his daughters owned but, one day 16 years ago, he asked me if I would be willing to take on a 6 month old male tabby named Harry, who had only been out of cat rescue a few months.  When I saw him I understood why.  He didn't know he was a cat - thought he was a lapdog.  didn't know he was meant to be aloof, thought he had to follow us round like a poodle LOL!  It is hard to believe it is 16 years ago since that little skinny thing hid behind my sofa crying his eyes out.  Didn't matter who you were or that he had only just met you, tough if you didn't like cats as up he would jump onto any lap he could find and lay there on his back with his head lolling down over a pair of knees expecting to have his tummy tickled.  How can animals like that NOT get under our skin eh?!

    It was Dec 12th 06 that my Harry went to sleep in my arms for the last time.  I knew I was doing the right thing as the pain left his face and my little darling that I knew and loved was there once more.  I still have his ashes in a beautiful carved wooden cat ornament and i have a tuft of his fur and his whiskers.  My little 'Tubkin' was irreplaceable and I have not had a cat since.  He filled my heart so much, there just aint room for another (unless someone higher up of course decides to just send another kitty in need :)

    All you need do fearing is remember that Kibbie knows how much you love him.  He knows how much a part of your lives he has been.  It sounds to me like that there cat has had as much love and devotion as one can have.  He also knows that he can trust you to be there for him in his hour of need and knows you will always do the right thing by him, even though it may break your heart.

    Please know that i am thinking of you, your family and Kibbie.

    pusscat (now you know why my profile name is what it is :)
  • travelr712 said on Nov 08, 2008....
    i know it's hard fearing, but if nothing else, you're on the other side of it now.
  • Lucytorial said on Nov 08, 2008....
    ohh honey ~ it is better that he went as quickly as he did put to sleep is far nicer than going in pain.  Your little puss cat was with you for quite some time and I hope that his presence remains in your families hearts forever... hugs girl.
  • pusscat said on Nov 08, 2008....
    Hello fearing.  I know it will be a while yet before you get round to reading us all.  That's ok.  You take all the time you want and need.  That is just you showing your respect to a great four legged character.

    One thing I will say is that, as the days, weeks and months pass by, and yes, cliche as it sounds the pain begins to ease away a little, the memories will come to the forefront of your mind of Kibbie.  Each month that passed I remembered some other funny scrape that Harry got into to.  The sadness will be replaced by laughter as you and Scooter Bug recall everything that you loved about Kibbie.

    I won't keep you any longer but if ever you want to PM me - just to say you want to talk about Kibbie - tell of the funny things and the sad things, my PM box will always be open to anyone who was lucky enough to have a cat in their lives.

    Take care fearing

  • queenparanoia said on Nov 08, 2008....

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

  • silver_phoenix said on Nov 08, 2008....
    aww, i'm so sorry. Kibbie is up in kitty heaven now. Kibbie is at peace. i know how it feels; lost a cat about 9 years ago the same way myself. it sucks.   :-(
  • MissMimi said on Nov 08, 2008....
    Oh sweetie...  I'm so sorry.  Poor little Kibbie.  {{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}
  • Hegemone said on Nov 11, 2008....
    Fearing, so sorry to hear about this.  I know Kibbie isn't suffering anymore though, and I'm positive he knows you all love him.  So now, even though you feel like he's missing, he really isn't ... just think about him for a while and some of the quirky things he'd do and he's right there with you.  I wish you the best and again, so sorry that this had to happen.
  • cuppajava said on Nov 11, 2008....
    Hi - I think i know how you feel - but not with my cat - i had to put one of my puppies down in June this year -she was 11 months old,and had mange from about 4 months.I fought tooth and nail to try and make her better and to keep her alive - but eventually she just gave up,and then vet told me that it was better to put her to sleep.I held her in my arms as the vet put the drip in her leg and held her for about 20 minutes til her heart stopped.I will never forget that for as long as i live.I had her cremated and about a week later I spread the ashes in the sea.
    The next day Max was born
    I know that you are hurting now - but time heals everything-most of the time.
    Remember her for what she was,and not how she died.
    Take care
    CJ
  • truthsayer said on Nov 13, 2008....

    Well sweetie, I am so sorry.  You know that when we lost our home, we lost our pets...all of them.  We still cry about them.  So I understand.  Really I do.  As you might have guessed, we have had some pretty unusual pets too.  I think there is a match between the people and their pets.  At least, personalities have seemed to "fit" with us that way.  Unusual and special people have unusual and special pets.  So I am sure that you will miss your kitty.

    Now, I want you to know that I said, "That's it.  No more animals.  No more loss.  No more sadness when they depart, however they depart."  My children have had all sorts of animals for years and years now.  I know it affected them.  But I didn't know how much.

    So, since we didn't have anything for my daughter's birthday recently, I felt bad.  Really bad.  A friend asked if we might still want a kitten she had picked out when I said, 'no more animals'.  It was going to a farm the next morning.  I finally agreed.  It was her birthday for heaven's sake.  She had already picked it out months ago anyway...and here it was, still available, but about to be "taken away" forever.

    I relented, and I am so glad I did.  She was a part of our family from the first day.  Her name is Cocoa.  She is very sweet and has a great disposition.  Fun too.  So, we have a kitten in the house again.  She will become a full grown cat.  She will be with us as long as she is with us...but she will always be with us in our hearts.  Just like your cat. 

    I am glad that your ex was with you all, to say goodbye.  I don't know why I am glad, but I am. 

    Love you, and I am still sorry for your loss.

    Truth

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