Dear Sir,

I know we've spoken since Sunday, but I still wanted to follow up with this email as requested as I agree that there is a lot of value in revisiting the events of the session and reflecting on them.

I'd have to start from Thursday, when we first discussed getting together on the weekend, when you instructed me to refrain from sex and masturbation between then and the session. It's an amusing human tendency that once you are told you can't have something, you immediately want it :) There were several times during that stretch that I was aching to relieve the build-up of sexual energy, but even apart from the results gleaned in the session itself, it also served as a frequent reminder of the events to come in the lead up to our meeting.

On Friday night on the phone you stated that I was to leave my underwear at home when I came to see you, which seemed like a fairly straightforward, if a bit risqué, request at the time. I didn't sleep a lot of Saturday night, enjoying the nervous energy that had me waking up almost on the hour. Normally if that happens a bit of play with my favourite toy helps me sleep, but of course that wasn't an option in this case!

Sunday morning finally arrived and I was up early, unable to squirm under the covers any longer. I got dressed, amused at my choice of one of the shortest skirts I own on a day when I was not going to be wearing anything underneath. I left the apartment, got into the lift and was immediately and completely consumed by the thought that I was not wearing any underwear. I smiled at the psychology behind it as I walked, but remained acutely aware of my predicament from then until I arrived at your building.

Naturally then it had a big impact when the first thing you did in the lift was to lift my skirt, exposing completely what had been on my mind the whole trip in order to spank me! :-)

Once inside, I felt very different to our first session, much more comfortable to be myself within the context of the submission, rather than withdrawing. The reassurance you provided on several occasions was very much appreciated and I feel it sets up a foundation where different tones and roles can be explored in the future because that understanding and trust is now very definitely there, even if it isn't always as explicitly stated.

The spanking you gave me was what I can only think to describe as the fulfilment of a fundamental fantasy of mine that I keep going back to in my mind. The anticipation and ritual around it made it very arousing for me - including being gently probed between my legs as that fact was discovered.

Washing and drying you was very sensual and was really where I noticed that I could start to relax enough to allow more of me to come through, rather than my perception of what a sub is, or how one acts.

Waiting for you with my back against the wall, able to hear bits and pieces of what was happening in the bedroom but unable to see anything was a delightful tease. My reaction to realising you were bringing out the collar and cuffs made me smile and I can now understand why other subs I've talked to speak fondly about their collars. I never thought much about them until I wore one that first time and then on Sunday, there was a definite excitement attached to having you put it on again.

Whether you were aware of it or not, you tapped into an interesting...gap, I guess you could say, in my sexual experience when you instructed me to get to know your cock, to look at it, feel it, lick it, etc.. Despite having attempted oral sex several times, I've never really examined anyone's cock before, nor touched it so specifically and deliberately. 29 years old and still finishing off sex ed – indeed the product of strict Catholic schooling! ;)

Having my cuffs hooked into my collar created some excitement, particularly when I was then guided over the arm of the couch with no easy way of getting up again. Restraints and bondage is definitely an area I’d like to explore more of and the sensation of being somewhat helpless in that predicament confirmed this. Having the butt plug in my bottom wasn’t so much painful, as I’d expected, as it was strange – I guess it’s just the body’s natural reaction to having a foreign object in there. I need to learn to relax a bit more with the anal play, not just physically, but psychologically, as it does challenge me on a few levels.

A couple of times during the session you made reference to penetration without a condom on, both anally and vaginally, in the future, which I’m not comfortable with at this stage for a number of reasons. We can talk about it more down the track, but I just wanted to let you know where I was at regarding that suggestion at this point in time.

You discovering how wet I was when I was over the couch was like my dirty little secret being exposed, which only served to perpetuate the matter! :) I had a reasonable idea of what you were going to find, but being “found out” still felt very naughty.

The sex that followed was extremely enjoyable – most certainly a highlight of my sexual experiences to date. Having my cuffs still attached to my collar was an interesting complication; it makes me curious to experience different types of restraint during clit stimulation in particular. I’m able to let go most easily in the restraint style you put me in a bit later, arms spread against the bed head (the tighter, the better for a full release), but there’s something in the frustration of not having that opportunity initially that adds to the build-up, maybe either being cuffed behind my back or together, above my head, or some other way I haven’t thought of… but for someone whose claim to fame amongst some of her friends is the fact that she ripped apart her first set of (cheap) restraints at the stitching the first time she used them, cuffs attached to collar should probably be reserved for preliminary activities only! ;)

I think the oral sex aspect, particularly when I went all the way to swallowing your cum, was a real revelation for me, as I have always thought that if that didn’t happen within a few minutes that it most likely wasn’t going to. To know that it might be 10-15mins is very useful to know – had you not mentioned that beforehand I almost certainly would have stopped earlier based on my previous assumption. It felt awkward at times, particularly when I got a bit overwhelmed and needed to get my breath back, but the completion was really important for me and I was pleased at your reaction. There is certainly an element of excitement at that point and finishing off and swallowing was in many ways also the most enjoyable part for me.

After your shower, when I started to lick and suck you again, I really had some fun with it. I felt that there was no longer the pressure I’d fairly inevitably put on myself earlier, and I could just be creative and explore somewhat this “new territory”.

Overall I found it to be a terrific experience and I’m so glad we tried again. I’d love to know your thoughts on some of the different activities and I look forward to when we get to play next (maybe even this evening if that’s still a possibility?)

Thank you for creating such a warm, safe, challenging, sexual and fun environment and experience, starting from the instructions on Thursday and Friday – rest assured the aftershocks are still being felt ;)

Respectfully,
Dru xx