Well lucky me, I get to start school back in the fall!!YAY!!! But more or less I need to get a few things off my chest!!  I am so sick of people that do not know the meaning of family and friends!!! Why the HELL are people so damn selfish all the time?? Why is it that you think you see their true colors one minute and not the next??? I mean geeezzzzz, I have lived with panic disorder for 2 years, and have had major failures and major triumphs, but I always seem to be able to listen to everyone and their issues, but, sometimes I just need someone there for me, and I am not trying to be a selfish bitch, but sometimes people just need to be able to talk about some of their own problems occasionally, right?? Where are all these supposed family and friends at, that are supposed to be there for you when times are hard?? It seems to me that most people just try to ignore your problems, why is that?? And why is it that people always seem to want you to put on a happy face and act if nothing is wrong?? Don't people ever get tired of being fake all the time?? When is it ok to just not be ok?? Can't we ever just be ourselves?? And if we want darkness for a little while, then that should be ok to, right?? Maybe not all of us are as strong as we would like to be!! Can't I just be me?? I am tired of acting like someone that I am not and who everyone wants me to be, so from now on I am going to show my true colors, NO MATTER THE COST AND NO MATTER WHOSE FEELINGS GET HURT IN THE PROCESS!!!! And if you don't like it, then you  are not a true friend anyways, and I CAN DO WITHOUT YOU!!!!!!