"My only requirement is frank and open communications."

After years of being interested in D/s, I finally took the plunge a few weeks ago and met with Master S, an experienced Dom whom I had met online.

We exchanged some messages, before talking on the phone and finally meeting for coffee one Friday.

That night we had our first play session.

In a couple of our conversations leading up to this session, Master S had expressed to me his requirement for honest and open communication, and stated that he wanted me to email him after each meeting, regardless of what happened during the session. 

This was something I was more than happy to do, as I love to write (although I don't do it enough, so at least this ensures that it happens!) and because it gives me an outlet in which to share my perspective, which may not be as easy to convey within the context of a scene.

The first session was quite a shock to the system and part of me wanted to take "the easy way out" and disappear under the radar after that night, but the only thing that Master S asked of me after I called an end to the session and scurried away was if I could still send an email as discussed and I had promised that I would.

It took me days to get my head clear enough to put thoughts to paper but I did and I was so glad I did. It was through writing my reflection that I realised that I wanted to try again.

Since that day we have played a few more times and I've really enjoyed it. Even though it still takes me a while to make myself start writing, once I start, it's hard to stop - I love reflecting on the sessions and sharing what I couldn't or didn't at the time and might not be able to do even over the phone.

We've talked a couple of times about putting my emails into a blog for others to read and so here they are :-)

Aside from removing identifying details, I don't plan to edit the emails at all (but will do if I feel an absolute need to), which is quite confronting from my perspective as there is considerable content in these emails about how I felt about different parts of the scenes, including my various concerns and stresses.

The idea is to give readers a very genuine, unreserved look-in to the world of one submissive from her perspective, as expressed candidly, as well as creatively, to her Dom.

The emails are written to and primarily intended for Master S only, and anyone else reading them will have to fill in any gaps that may appear however they wish to do so. I may decide to add explanatory notes if it becomes necessary and I'm happy to answer questions, but (after much internal debate I might add!), I like the idea of maintaining the integrity of the emails by not fussing about with them.

I may start to add other blog entries as well, I have no idea how or if the idea will grow, but for now I'll start by just posting up the emails - first with those already written and then I will post them as I send them.

Feel free to comment or ask questions, or just enjoy the journey :-)

Dru xx