• gingersoul said on Nov 05, 2008....

  Queenie...sweetie....after you stop yelling........breathe....relax and think of a plan for your future. Its the only way to bear the present.
  Not a daydream...but an organized plan...
  
  And even though it seems sappy....its true....you are only at the beginning of your life....think how great and invigorating this idea is...
  
  You are only cracking the wings of your pupa....the butterfly will come out very soon....{hugs}i
  

• queenparanoia said on Nov 05, 2008....

  ginger: ginger i'm bretahing now... still craving for a cigarette though... i feel better now. i just needed this to let out of my system because i'm really frutsrated and i want to explode... i'm okay now ginger babe... a butterfly... yeah but when??? i'm so impatient.... well i'll breath...think... plan... action... thanks ginger... ;-)

• uniquely-ironic said on Nov 05, 2008....

  I take it your little sister is the youngest?  It's a common family dynamic to pamper and coddle the youngest child.  I'm sorry your mother is laying the blame for her poor grades at your doorstep.  Hang in there!

• cuppajava said on Nov 05, 2008....

  Hi - I would agree with Ginger and Uni on this one.I am the oldest of 2,and I know that i always got the short end of the stick - dont stress about it,and take it on your shoulders and show how mature you CAN be about all this

• phoeby said on Nov 05, 2008....

  families can sometimes suck really badly, can't they..:( and it's great to get it all out. hope you feel better soon chickster..
  love phoeby

• wombat said on Nov 05, 2008....

  Just reading, listening, and understanding.  It's so hard to spread those wings and fly (aka growing up---and I will let you know if I ever do......ha)

  I do hope you find that path ahead where you have room for your wings to spread.  It will come one day, when you've probably not even noticed it happening.

• Hegemone said on Nov 05, 2008....

  Wow, well queenie...I must say, it sounds like you don't really need to grow up... you already are.  That's a lot of responsibility to place on you, especially as she's a younger sibling, not your own daughter.  I'm not sure what to say here as I don't truthfully know bunches about your family.  Sounds like your mother wants all the good stuff and needs somebody to fall back on when there's bad stuff.  Unfortunately that somebody is you.  Just look forward to the fact that it will get better, whether you remember it or not your sister will know you really love her and you were doing all you could.  Doesn't matter what anybody else thinks, not even your mother.  I'm sure you'll find your way into moving out and getting on your own in time, when it's right.  Another way to look at this, and this is how I make myself think about it when a loved one slams me with something that is completely and utterly unfair or untrue ... they are only lashing out at me like this because they know I love them, and they love me, so they know I will forgive them in time, if not right away.  My grandma I believe told me something about this, but to give proper credit it could've been my mom that said that also.  I've taken that to heart really.  Your mom depends on you a lot it sounds like, and so when things aren't going well for her she lashes out at you because she knows you're the one that can truly handle it.  So again, maybe you don't need to grow up so much, just need to realize that you're already there, it's just time to make changes if that's what you really want.  I wish you the best of luck.  Just remember, breath, know that it'll get better, and think of each of these as a stepping stone to your bright and shining future.

• queenparanoia said on Nov 05, 2008....

  uniquely: yeha she's the youngest. i'm trying not to make her be a spoiled brat cuz she always gets what she wants. well and for mother, i think this will be forgotten in a few days... thanks uniquely.

  cuppajava: it's hard to be mature in all of this whne my mother is treating me like i'm not responsinle... even i am. i hated it cuz i sacrifice a lot to be a responsible person and then she says i'm not. it  sucks being the older sister. thanks for reading my rant.

  phoeby: i feel better now. i'm gonna friend my friend later so i think i would be alright... ;-)

  wombie!!!! i miss you!!! i'm okay now... well i hope i'll grow those wings cuz i want to fly away... ;-)

  hegemone: wow. thank you for those words. you kinda get it. youre right she's doing this because she knows i could take it. i'm okay and i'll take your words by heart.... ;-)

• skald said on Nov 06, 2008....

  It is obvious that you love your little sister and you are a responsible big sister. I think it should be your mother's responsibility to help your sister with her lessons.
  
  But maybe, because you are many and your mother has much to do she gives you that responsibility. I don't know. I think she has probaly much on her mind too and this she lets on you. As you said your brother is difficult and I think it affects her too.
  
  Of course you are a normal family. I think your mother is hard on you. Maybe she wants much from you because she knows you are a capable girl.
  
  Well I know this will blow over. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))
  

• tao said on Nov 07, 2008....

  hinde mareng reyna, ganito gawin mo: i-rap mo na lang sa harap ng ermat mo yung nakalagay sa youtube. yun bang, me kasamang pairap-irap at karate chop.
  
  pero pahagingan mo lang si ermat, wag mo tuluyang ichop-chop. outlet lang ng inis kumbaga. ligtas na paraan ng pagbuhos ng hinagpis. o di ba mare?
  
  

• queenparanoia said on Nov 07, 2008....

  skald: yeah it would end soon... i guess she is just being a mom. thank you skald... ;-)

  tao: ohmygod buhay ka!!!!! grabe welcome back!!!!! ahahhahahhahha isayaw ko na lang sya ng papaya!!!! ;-)

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