Yesterday, as we were leaving to do a solemn, mundane task, I slipped upstairs and slid my Smartballs in.  We left.  Once there, I texted K and told him what I was doing, and how I had prepared.

He replied with a text, saying, "That text is going to make me jerk off."

I playfully replied back, telling him how unfair that was, and that I wanted to call and listen.  He denied me.  He made me explain why, and then said "No."  Agonizing.  I asked again and he said no again.  He's told me in the past that he enjoys denying me sometimes.  "...all part of being my whore" was one of his replies.  Which was just a little thrilling.

I started to wonder if he fully holds the power because he can deny me once I've gotten him to the point where I want him, and then he can proceed without me.  I though back to some other posts that I've read, I wondered if instead, Ihold the power because he wouldn't have been at that point had I not brought him there.  Confusing.  I can't feel denied if he doesn't withhold, but he has nothing to withhold without me.

I decided to have the last word by sending him a quick text hours later, describing how it felt to pull the smartballs out, and reminding him that I was thinking about him while I did it.  And I told him not to reply.  : )