I never blogged before and this is all new, so this is me and I guess this is where all my sleepless nights will go from now on.
No more hiding the diary.
Hopefully this is a good way to release and blow off some steam every now and again.
Anger management at it's cheapest.
Maybe I'll stop banging my head against the bathroom wall now - who knows?
Nah I'm kidding I bruise like a banana, what would I look like if I had to bang my head a few hundred times?

Do I have to introduce myself?
Do I post the things that are popping into my head right now straight away?
Damn too many questions Mischa, you're confusing yourself.

I like talking to myself every once in a while, keeps me sane.................
or maybe that is what's driving me insane?
I don't know, but then again what do I know?

I am engaged and yet in my mind I am still a child......should I, should I not?
I want to study to help the mentally Ill but yet I am confused and can't even sort out my own issues.........should I, should I not?

Life has so many choices, it's hard to see the right from the wrong.
Not the should I steal that car choice, no I know that's wrong.
I'm talking about the choices:
Am I really ready to get married?
Will I be a good psychiatrist?
Will I be a good wife?
Should I have children? I don't like children.
Is just true love enough?
Is the reason for my bad luck or the fear thereof because I need a better relationship with God?

I am so confused I could burst a coronary!

So this is my first post....weird, I feel better already. :)