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It was daybreak when you returned to face my angry words
Exhausted from the long night
I withdraw to the bedroom
You stagger behind

You stand determined at the foot of the bed
This is not new to me...I look forward to the clash of wills
You are unwavering but I will not concede
Stymied…my victory enrages you

I am naked
My cunning words are now worthless
I am powerless against your strong body
Your mass constrains me

Your predictable modest hand is now commanding
Restraining my wrists above my head
I protest
I fight

My hand is free
I must move you but I cannot
I shove you, I push you but my efforts are futile
I put my hand between us...one final attempt

I am wet…my body betrays me too

You force my hand away
I know it is inevitable...I surrender
I am yours, my body the sweet spoils of our enmity
My panic contained...I submit

You are inside me…You bastard
The stench of your alcohol laced breath overwhelms me
Your indulgent moans and grunts... the sounds repulse me
I wait for the end

Exhausted
You sleep
Rage…Hatred…Confusion
I ruminate



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  • NaughtyMommy said on Oct 30, 2008....
    Powerful.
  • breakingmysilence said on Nov 02, 2008....
    wow....intense. The waiting for the end is one of the worst feelings in the world, you feel helpless....not feeling like there is anything you can do but wait and wait.
  • OscarB said on Nov 07, 2008....
    feeling like there is nothing you can do is the worst... the thought that this person can do with you as he wishes makes me feel so angry all over again.  What pisses me off the most is the fact that he knows it too.
     
  • peanut_WI79 said on Nov 07, 2008....
    I pray I never see this person...I would want to drive over him and back up again.
  • MidniteToker said on Dec 02, 2008....
    schwing

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uggghh...
A hate crime? Or just a white girl getting raped?...
This is the first of many. Telling my story the only way I know how....
still...