so at this ungodly hour, you may be wondering why it is i am up, well i just got home oop's...

 

As usual there are tonnes of things running through my head and seen as how its been a while since i gave you all an insight into my forever flapping brain, and because if i dont write them down there is no way ill ever sleep, here is whats running through my head right now...

 

Why on earth do i go out on a monday night when i have lecture at 10?

 

Should i run for social secretary?

 

I'm looking forward to seeing Quiet boy this weekend BUT (and there is ALWAYs a but)

-am i setting myself up for a fall?

-is it only gonna make being away from hiom harder?

-why when i am still mad about QB do i desperately want Ph to want me?

 

How am i already sooooo poor?

 

Am i really smart enough for my literature course?

 

How come all these usual self deprecating thoughts are running through my head, and yet i still feel on top of the world?

-am i possibly getting more confident?

-perhaps too confident?

 

What do other people think of me?

How do other people see me? do they see the same as i do in the mirror?

- thats not a question about looks more a philosophical thing about seeming, and self imageas an entirety, will we ever truly know ourselves as others know us?

 

So there you go, thats where i am right now, shattered, feet killing form dancing, and at the end of my cup of tea, night night x