My body longs for it day and night.  I see something attractive on almost every woman I see.  It makes my mind, for an instant, flirt with the possibility.  It never happens.  I search Craigslist for others who are lonely, only to find capitalism.  I have another but she lives so far away.  The months in-between are unbearable.  My body is in its prime, its only prime.  I want not to be loved but to be ravaged.  To be used by someone with my same problem and mindset.  Self gratification only.  A mutual respect of the instinctual need to come.  Someone who like me, could fade away at a moment's notice to be forgotten without regret or sorrow, but who could also be there with a text or simple call.  One who wants to explore fantasies and inner desires though taboo and embarrassing.  I know she is out there but the odds that she is near are unimaginable.  Young or experienced matter not.  The thought of her in a marriage doesn't even cause the thought of a second look.  She needs what I need and love is back with her other, but her body is with me.  The thought of such a situation stirs desire from deep within my body and organs.  To experience what another could physically offer me is extremely arousing.  The uniqueness of each body with a different effect on mine every time is what life was meant to offer.  The exhilaration such an innocent connection with another is a constant goal.  My body aches, longs for the moment when dream becomes reality and union is made with my Soul and instinctual desire is fulfilled.  I want to share these feelings with her, to she her satisfied.  If only she could find me....