He is due back today and I am feeling nervous...before he left we had discussed the status of our relationship. He wanted to know if I still loved him and based on my answer, was going to decide what to do. I couldn't actually answer him... I talked around the topic but could not give him a definitive answer. I am nervous because I know he will want to pick up the discussion.
I have decided that I am going to...for the first time in 14 years...be completely honest with him. He is going to get it all... so he better brace himself. I don't love him anymore...and I want this miserable relationship to be over.
I am concerned with what his reaction might be, he is capable of being aggressive. He can be very cruel and callous at times...which is my biggest concern.
He will be here this afternoon...I am excited at the prospect of finally having some clarity on where my life is going but a little scared at the same time.
