sat 25 oct 08
in Dante's Inferno, the ninth circle of hell is reserved for traitors. since i have been betrayed by everyone for over a year, the ninth circle of Dante's hell is reserved for every single human who has participated in my abuse for a very long time. i do not care. i hope they all get particularly hot seats. my conscience towards human beings has been shut off with a little switch. i learned that from neurotypicals.
agent e. just came to see me with coffee and an english muffin spread with peanut butter. i don't drink much coffee -- you'd think the fascists would know that after 7 and a half months. i pretended to be grateful, then tossed everything out. yes, i'd eaten a few bites. but i refuse to ingest more than a little of the goop they're always feeding me, because it makes me extremely tired, and it causes lots of pain and swelling in my feet. that is, when they're not feeding me attenuated viruses. last friday, the 17th, agent seafood tried to feed me 4 shrimp and a slab of salmon with their goop and viruses in it. i ate two of the shrimp, and for three days i was so tired i could hardly move. ordinary people in this town do not offer me food: they have been instructed not to help me in any way. when i get offered food, it's an agent, and it's lousy with goop and petrie-dish germs. fuck off, sadists.
MAFIOSI: DOGS
yup, yup they use dogs to protect me too. yet another example of their sadism. the FBI took my OWN two dogs away and had them killed, or whatever they did with them, and then started protecting me with dogs. NEVERMIND that seeing dogs, seeing dogs with their humans, is intensely painful to me. nevermind that. i can't take ten steps without running into a dog, a stab of grief and rage.
the people of turners falls, just like the people of greenfield and keene and amherst and white river and lebanon, march in lockstep to the FBI's tune and refuse to help me in any way. yes, i've known for many years that most people are sheep: it's one of the things i despise about neurotypicals. but i never knew until now that so many people are nothing but sheep. the ninth circle of hell to you all.
so who are the players, again? FBI, DEA, ATF and, hold on to your hats, as kurt vonnegut used to say: the RCMP and, it's been suggested to me more than once now, the CIA. yes children, apparently this mafia operates overseas too. and of course there are my nasty relatives abroad, who may or may not be still involved in crime. so, we have all the biggest law kids on the north american continent spending more than a year -- and millions of dollars -- keeping a mafia bullet out of anne nakis' head, while at the same time relentlessly kicking the shit out her body and heart and soul. and all illegal, because she never gave informed consent to be mafia bait. and all immoral because she is NOT a mafia princess (though apparently i could have been if i'd wanted to, if i'd known about my relatives) and she has NOT committed any crime. what does the god of the pseudo-religious folks of turners falls think of all THAT? may the ocean's dogs devour you all. the ninth circle of hell to every last one of you.
