I went home dizzy with the conflicting emotions your silence has caused.  I walk on the familiar trail of my emotional rollercoaster.  The all too familiar sense of  false security and euphoria.  I ride on until the next drop.  I'm not sure if all the excitement is worth the nausea I experience in the aftermath of its fleeting glory.  I think I'll pass the next round.  I have long been bound to this cycle of ups and downs that after years of lingering I still find myself on the same spot I was on ten years ago.  But the time for me to finally go has come.  I refuse to look back and and hold on to this daydream.  I am letting you go along without regrets.  I won't take a second look at you and risk getting into the trap once again.  I've had more than enough share of broken dreams.  That's why I'm leaving them all behind. 

     I told You I will still love You no matter what the outcome of htis journey might be.  I've let go of my dreams and choose instead to look up to You in faith.  Just hold me in Your hands and I'll be fine.  I place my hope of a final ride with You.  You test if my word was final.. Im sorry if I hurt you by glancing once in a while at the debris my Daydreams left behind.  I won't wallow in my loss but instead I;ll stand up and look only to You.

 

The end of my trip is fast approaching.  Help me use the time I have left for the greatest purpose