Dan, my husband and soul-mate, still finds me attractive and still wants to make love to me as often as possible. He loves our family and works hard to support us. The problem is that my attraction to Dan has changed. I want kissing and cuddling, and yet we sleep in separate beds with separate sheets and blankets. He doesnt want to kiss or cuddle but is happy to have sex with me for the whole 5 minutes that it lasts, and his hard-ons are awesome. I know that he is not the whole problem, though more stamina would be SPECTACULAR! When we are done, we move to our own beds and go to sleep... no spooning, no talking, no teasing or tickling...

           I tremendously miss that jolt of electricity of a first kiss with a new lover. That feeling that makes your whole body flush with heat and makes you all wet, hot, and excited. And that feeling has been gone for so long that it is all I can think about now. I tried to ask Dan for permission to seek attention for these needs and he has refused me. I sought it anyway. I'll tell you about Evan next.

 

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