I will be 33 in March... my son will be 5...I think next year is going to be most interesting.

I have achieved just about all the goals I set myself for 2008, professionally that is... personally I have come a long way and have learnt so much more about myself, but am currently stuck at a crucial point.  

I have some anxieties about next year... professionally it is going to be extremely difficult as I have a number of challenges.  In my personal life, I feel that I am at a point where I am almost ready to make a big decision which has plagued me for the last couple of years.  Financially I know I will be fine, but I am scared shitless... to be honest.  I am planning to get divorced so my concern is around the conflict which I will have to deal with.  

I can deal with conflict at work with no problem... I am actually quite an aggressive bitch at work, this is because I need to be... not who I really am but I'm so terrified of failing on any level that I will do whatever it takes to make sure that I am the best at what I do.

At home I am pathetically passive... even worse passive aggressive at times.  I can't handle the fighting with my husband.  But I think 2009 will be a year of huge growth for me... I know it will be painful and challenge me immensely but I know this is what I want.

So... I will hang on to my panties, close my eyes and take a great big leap into a very dark, scary place.  

I know I will be just dandy!!!