I was afraid of becoming vegetarian;
afraid that i would lose to much weight:
afraid that i wouldn't get enough protein
in my diet or the right nutrition enough
to sustain my health: but now it's like...
"i don't care!" I'm not afraid anymore!

I thought to myself after seeing a show
on Oprah Winfrey most recently about the
environment in which farm animals are
raised "How dare they!" I got so angry.
I've heard about animals being treated
badly on farms before and i've seen

much video about it online on youtube.com
but the information that i have previously
learned had never penetrated my heart as
deeply as it did when i saw it on the Oprah
Winfrey Show. To me... Oprah Winfrey is like
my television Mother and when i see her and i

listen to her, i take to heart what she chooses to
speak about on her show. When i'd read about or
hear about farm animal abuse online, i wouldn't
take it to heart because there are so many scams
and misguiding information online that i wouldn't
take certain information presented online as being

"fully" Truthful. But; seeing the show on Oprah about
farm animals and the environment in which they
are raised in struck me as a sign of the times,
and for me as a personal sign that it is time for change.
Complete change! To me... if a subject went so far
as to be presented on a show like the Oprah Winfrey

Show (which i know isn't about a bunch of non-sense
like many shows on television are) then i knew it had to
be mostly True! See... at first i was just eating meat on
Fridays as a way of weaning myself off of depending on
meat as one of my primary food sources but now...
I don't want to eat meat at all. Forget "weaning!"

I stopped eating red meat a few years ago when i kept
hearing about ecoli outbreaks and all kinds of illnesses
that arose from eating red meat. Then i stopped drinking
cows milk because of illnesses i learned arose from that...
and i started only eating white meat. But now, i've turned to
Vegetarianism. Why am i vegetarian now? I became vegetarian

primarily, because i love God and i want to show him that
i do Love him enough to give up my love for meat. And...
i just want him to know that "I Care!" I want to know that when
his beautiful loving spirit comes near to mine, that he is not
sensing the guilt, fear and sadness inside of me that i have
been feeling, for so long, every time i put a piece of meat in

my mouth. For me... the taste of meat has become one of
scorn, not of pleasure. I know that in the Bible people ate meat;
and God spoke of what is ok to eat and what is not [Leviticus 11]
and there are meats in God's word that was said to be ok to eat.
But TODAY in Our Present Reality. I Can't Do it Anymore!
In all honesty, i liked the way bake chicken tasted. I liked

having turkey with cranberry sauce on Thanksgiving and so on...
but i just can't do it anymore! NOT with the knowledge of how farm
animals are being treated and Not with the growing of love in my heart
for God's creation. I just Can't take Eating Meat Anymore! I have such a
big mushy heart, and i refuse to support [by "buying" and eating meat
(Non-Organic or Organic)] the Meat Industry and the ignorance of

Farmers that i have not only witnessed on the Oprah Winfrey show
treating and housing animals badly, but on many more video's that i
have watched after that. My heart goes out primarily to God on this
matter. I know that God did not intend for these animals to be treated
this way [http://www.meetyourmeat.com]. I am torn. Completely
torn. I've put my hand on my head and sadly asked myself "how

could i have been so blind?" Then i cried a little restraining
myself from bawling as i wiped away small tears. All my life
i ate meat never thinking about "The Animal". I just ate it
because i was raised up eating it and i knew it as... "food".
That's all i ever saw it as. But: i'd never eat fish, chicken or
anything with the face on it and in a obvious body form,

because then that would tell my mind that it actually was something
that use to live and "poop" and then i'd feel disgusted (knowing i'm
eating something that had waste... eeew!). So, for me... it was always
far more easy to eat meat in unrecognizable forms and think of it
as food; providing me with the necessary nutrition that i need to be
healthy and survive. But today, because of my shifting in

thinking which was pushed just a little bit further by the
Oprah Winfrey Show... and because of all the research i
did on alternative food's that i can eat for protein and
maintaining a healthy weight, and because of watching
video's of cute little farm animals running around at play;
and even adult farm animals at play and enjoying life

i feel i can't be a part of taking that away from them... the
very things i enjoy. That enjoyment comes from the Heart
and Stems from Gods Love. Plus on top of that, i am aware
that meat has become increasingly unhealthy to eat by the way
many farm animals are raised and more. I even tried switching
to "Free Range" chicken and egg's exc, but then i ended

up thinking to myself... "What does it matter if the chicken
is 'free range' and for a 'short time' got to have a family, run
around and enjoy the breeze if it still and will ultimately Die
for human consumption and the ways of (Death) is Always
Questionable!" Which means... we could be eating
"showcased (by video) and labeled" [free range] chicken,

that (behind closed doors) could be being secretly and painfully
slaughtered when it's time for it to be made ready for our
consumption. Sometimes we hear that they are killed painlessly
but how true is that statement towards what "we do not feel"
ourselves! And even if a chicken or any other farm animal
is killed with little to no pain, We as humanity are still constantly

killing, killing, Killing, for our consumption, helpless, friendly animals
that enjoy the same sunlight and air as we do, When in fact, there
are many Alternative Foods we can eat that provide us with all the
nutrients we need to sustain our lives. Now... some people may say
"it's 'natural' to eat meat. Tigers and lions in the wild kill and eat
meat
exc" BUT... we are Not animals! and... there are many animals that

are vegetarian. WE are human being's (made in God's image) with
Choices, Hearts and Understanding, and when we Understand that
something is "Wrong" we should Take Positive Action any way we can.
After all, God put us Humans in charge of many things, and when
he did that, i'm sure he desired for us to make many of our choices
in our dealings with things (Out of Love) Not out of (Cruelty). I feel
that...

"By Buying and Eating Meat; We're Supporting the Death of Animals
(that 'ENJOY' LIFE like We do) PERIOD!"

These thoughts pushed me more towards wanting to become Vegetarian!
Sometimes i felt like the more i ate meat, the more i grew a little
dead in
my heart. I'd feel stress and pain in my spirit with every bite. Some
little
voice inside me kept telling me... "meat isn't good for you anymore
China:
in no way: shape: or form! IT ISN'T GOOD!" and every time i ate it
thinking

"I NEED it, i have no choice!
(like as if i'm on a deserted island with no other food choices)"

i grew a little more sad and depressed every day, almost as if the
negative
energy that derived from the animals suffering would pass onto me.
Sometimes
i believe that maybe it did! I'd increasingly feel more disharmony and
guilt
within my soul every time i sat down to a plate with meat. And...
I believe in karma, and i believe that the longer farm animals
are treated badly by Us... "Humanity" (because under God,

We Are ONE) the more destruction to our world will come! Peace
doesn't rise from hell, dissonance, discord and torture: it rises from
Understanding. In the future, If We are to live in peace, and even
Paradise among ALL the living, like which is so wonderfully portrayed
in Biblical brochures and in Holy sanctuaries then surely (eventually)
ALL thing's must have peaceful alternative eating patterns which i am

sure God will set in place. So for now... until that time comes, which
i know it will; my thought's are... "farm animals are better off peaceful
and left in one piece: and i feel that i am better off... Living
Vegetarian!"
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Extra notes: Ever since i formed such a wonderful and loving bond with
our beautiful Father in Heaven i have felt so much love in my heart and
clarity in my thought's, and now that i stopped eating meat, i feel even
more love and clarity! THANK GOD! :D and... i have more energy!
And: i feel more Complete "Spiritually" being a Vegetarian. I feel like
that if certain kinds of conformity means bringing more peace and
harmony to our world. Then i have no problem conforming! I just wonder
what's next. I'm ready for whatever God wants to change in my heart.

Now all i got to do is find ways to exercise a
little more. I need to build some muscle! ;)

Thanks for reading.
Peace and Love.



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