I'm so sick in being in this marriage that I've literally have gotten sick. I'm done with all these stupid arguments about any little things that irks the both of us. I'm tired of the arguments always ending up about sex because I say no to it. Don't you think that because of how this marriage is going that I'm not wanting any kind of affection from you. Yeah I know it's wrong of me, but that is how I feel. I've told you about my feelings, in which it's very hard for me to do anyway, and it's like you really don't care. Sure you say, I hear you, I understand you and then it's back to the same old stupid mess. I've distanced myself from you and you see it, you have told me. I've told you the truth of how I feel about this marriage, that I'm done with it, I have given up on it.

I don't understand how in a marriage that you cannot have your own space. Usually that is all I ask at the time. I think that it's a good way to relieve stress, do something on your own for your own sanity. What is it with you that you think we have to be connected at the hip of doing every little thing together. I'm sorry to say that I am an independent type of woman, I like to do things on my own at times. It helps me out. I don't understand where you don't get that. I'm just tired of this whole thing. I'm ready to bounce and I'm doing it soon. It doesn't matter if I do it today, tomorrow or next year, but I'm going to be gone. You don't have to worry about me not being the "stedford wife" as your mind is dreaming up for you.

I've got tons of things going on on my plate, don't you think I have a right to be stressed out.. Of course you don't because you think that sitting at home with just one kid while the other two are at school doesn't give me stress. Haaaa. How about you take a step in my shoes for once. How about you try to work 5 to 6 jobs online jobs to help bring in extra money that is need, how about you keep the house in order all day long, how about you go to school full time, then turn around trying to get things done for that, having someone in your face asking millions of questions once you step in the door. How about you feel as though you don't know if you are going to be kicked out of your place of stay, or have lights on, or have food in the cabinets because someone doesn't know how to pay the bills properly.

I know that you are working as hard as you can at the job, but don't come here as though I'm not doing anything at all to help you out because that is the way I'm feeling. Everything is not about you all the time and don't worry, I will follow through with leaving soon and neither one of us will be miserable. You can think that I'm being selfish and running away from the "problems", but why stay when nothing is going to be fixed.......