Bump this junk!  I ain't about to kill myself to please alot of those that are out there.  I know what I'm going to be doing.  I'm glad that there are good people in this world that try and help me despite the jerks who hurt me.  I'm going to get into spellwork once again.  I have to get rid of the negativity that surrounds my daily life.  I have already looked up color correspondances for candles and moon phases.  I have the supplies to take care of this problem.  The incense smells scrumptiously spiritual and sweet.  If people think that I'm basking in the devil's presence, so be it.  All I'm doing is taking care of business.  Apparently, since it's been a long time, I have to refresh my aura and get the negativity to stop clinging to me once again.  Maybe I won't be suicidal anymore after that.  Hey!  Maybe I'll be docile enough to go back to work.  Maybe I won't be controlled by addiction to caffeine and nicotine too.  Who knows?  The main thing is that I rid myself of the bad that clings to my spirit so that I can move forward.  I'm tired of being pushed around.  I have to do what I have to do.  It's all good.  My strength is back again after sleeping most of the day away.