I don't know whats up with me..... I know I'm Happy where I'm at... 100% sure.... I'm also 100% sure that I love Lyle and that I want to be with him.. marry him! But this is the part that confuses me. My ex has been hounding me since I got up here to get back with him... and I always turn him down. But after listening to all his promises and vows that he has changed there is always the thought in the back of my mind wondering if I should get back with him... or if I should have done what I did by getting with Lyle. And that is what I'm confused about. Why do I wonder that if I'm so happy here? But I would think If I still loved Ryan and wanted to be with him that as soon as he put the offer on the table I would have went running back. I"M SOOOO CONFUSED on why I feel like this.

I know there is noway I am going back to him. I know there is noway that even with his promises that he could make me anywhere near as happy as Lyle has. I love him to death ( Lyle that is) So can anyone tell me why I feel like this? Why I wonder about such things?

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