oct 18, year 2-0-0-8
i've got to cover some ordinary stuff for a minute. i don't do much blog-reading, i do a little. but in august i found a blog and i've been reading a lot in it. i emailed the blogger, and she did so to me too, and now we're friends, sort of, through the cyberanonymity of email. but i feel like i know her. anyway, she's got this guy in love with her who also, as part of his job, has been sitting back letting his employers kick the shit out of her for a long time now. but he's in love with her. and he doesn't seem to have clue 1 why she doesn't want to talk to him anymore. a very similar thing happened to me three years ago. this guy was in love, and i was in love, but he was doing something that was so anti-love and anti-me that i finally just had to get away. what is all this bifurcation stuff, anyway? love with one hand and beat with the other. and they just don't get it, these men. sympathy to my email friend.
swallowhollowswallows, from which we get a neologism, whollow. so if you're whollow, are you a little whole and a little hollow? i have no idea.
moons and junes and ferris wheels
joni mitchell wrote that, not me. it's about love.
you laced the night with raging storms
you threw the lightning across the sky
you kissed my mouth with promises
you burned me with your lies
jacques brel wrote that. it's also about love.
and when all has come to dust
i will kill you if i must
i will love you if i can
and may i never learn to scorn
the body out of chaos born
the woman and the man
i think this is leonard cohen, but don't quote me on that. ya, well, if male and female evolved out of chaos, then it's still chaos. nothing much has changed there.
ever notice that for some people love is so simple, and for others it's one horror show after another? due to such horror shows, i have scorned the body out of chaos born. no, i didn't turn gay or anything else drastic. just quietly backed away from the whole lacerating mess.
pink and blue dizzybrained last night. blue sky and pink clouds over my whole town, and i got dizzy rotating in a circle to see it all. pink-and-blue-dizzybrained.
every guy in love who lies or customizes the truth or moans and groans for manipulating us or little-boy whines so his mommy will show up and fix it SHOULD BE MADE BY LAW TO GARGLE A HALF HOUR WITH THE OLD LISTERINE, THE STUFF THAT TASTED LIKE MEDICINE. disinfect and sanitize that flapping mouth.
Salve, Anna, et ave atque vale. That's about all I remember of my Latin days.
16 sept 2-0-0-9 .............. "ecce mendax" he's not being original a lot of the time. he's stealing words out of sehnen's (anne's) comments to me.
