Well, it seems that they aren't going to let up on the sweepstakes entries.  The only way I can have a decent amount of money apparently, is to give up the witchcraft.  Do I have to stay poor just because I'm not a good little virgin christian girl?  Come on now.  I know that there are other fucking people that practice different beliefs that are very successful.  Some people don't even believe in any deity at all and still make it in this world.  Why are people so hellbent on making it so that I can't survive in it?  I have never raped anyone.  I don't make a habit out of beating people up.  I guess that they want me to kill myself.  I want to enjoy life, but they won't let me.  All these stupid people want to do is get me upset.  Then they wonder why I call them stupid.  All throughout my life I have been the target for some sort of harassment.  This is just stooping low now.  Nothing that I have done constitutes this sort of punishment.  I have lost faith in the human race.  Now I see that it's nothing but fucking fucked up it's ass.  I am not a fucking terrorist.  Still, some turd is getting in the way of my chances to win some money and get out of debt.  All I do is try to live.  If I am that much of a threat to society if I have money and any sort of power, then I know that society is nothing more than a sadistic disaster.  I shouldn't have to pleed my damn case in order to be treated fairly.  There are people who have done alot worse in life than me that are living productive lives now.  What is it?  Is it because I'm not an abusive male that I am getting tormented like this?  I know now that they want me to kill myself.  They wouldn't keep pushing me around if they didn't.  Well, I'm still alive.  There's something I can do about it.  I shouldn't be punished as if I were doing wiccan spells ever to punish someone else.  I am not Wiccan or in any way light like they claim to be.  I prefer not to be christian.  I should have every right to fight back or release the anger that I have built up from the abuse in a just manner.  I think that it is just to release in ritual.  To say that it is not is to say that we must all live in denial.  I don't want to live in denial.  I want to get better.  Why the fuck won't these stupid fucks let me?  Why do they always want to intervene in my life?  I'm a 34 year old woman.  Is this intervention in my life just because I have a pussy?  I didn't ask to be born, nor did I say I wanted to be female.  I shouldn't be punished by dirtbags because I have a hole and not a rod.  Fuck this shit.  I'm tired of it.  I have a right to relief.  My life has sucked ever since I was a young child.  I want the power and ability to move into my own place.  I want to be able to do good things as well as release my anger.  I want to be the person that I am without people threatening me if I don't fucking hide.  Why am I being tormented like this?  I have been punished for breathing ever since kindergarten.  I can't trust anyone.  No one has my best interest at heart but me.  All alot of other people do is get in the fucking way.  There are some folks that are beyond the primitive "shit on the nerd" phase, who are good people.  The rest just end up wanting to hurt me.  I'm tired of it.  Why me?  What is so god damn threatening about me that people insist on getting in my god damn way?  What are they afraid I'm going to hurt them?  What reason would I have to hurt them unless they became a threat to my existence.  If people want to get primitive, I can get fucking primitive too.  Shit!  I am so fucking pissed right now.  I really have lost faith in this species.