I think he may actually love me… or at least, he’s moving in that direction…
Night before last, Ryuu had company over which means he was going to town on his scotch again. Nothing new there. However, when Ryuu was drunk, he says that this was the dialog that happened during one part of the evening.
Yui (to Ryuu): You should set Nanami up with Akio.
(Akio is a friend of Ryuu’s. I’ve never met the man.)
Ryuu (drunk): MINE!
Yui: What?
Ryuu (after realizing what just came out of his mouth): Uh, she’s MY friend!
Yui: I meant for a date!
Ryuu: Yeah, I get that now…
He kinda said that on Sunday too. We were in his car, driving to the mall, having a discussion about menage a trois and he says, “I don’t share my women.” I just looked at him and said, “Ryuu, you said WOMEN. Plural.” He said, “Well, I guess, technically, I have two. That I care about a lot. And I don’t share.”
So… what’s the deal then? He’s in love with two women? Myself and Yui? I know now that I’m not just a fuck to him anymore. He fuckin’ kisses me like he fuckin’ means it. It’s easy to get lost in that.
He confuses me to no end.
All I know is that if he keeps this shit up, Yui won’t be so oblivious anymore and one or both of us will die a horrible bloody death. My biggest fear is I won’t be good enough forever.
