Why do I feel like I'm about to explode?  I feel terrible, like my insides are twisting in knots, waiting for some sort of imminent descent into nothingness, which unfortunately for me, I have already taken.  This seems odd, but it's true.  I hate it here.  I'm so bored, bored to boredom, so bored that I'm bored of being bored.  I'm tired, depressed, angry, frustrated, and most of all, pissed off.  I am so fucking tired of having to search for meaning beyond my incessant repetition.  Work... Money... Job... School... Food... Sleep... that's all my life is now.  Nothing more.  All work and no play - and yes, I have become quite dull.  I HATE HOW MY LIFE IS GOING RIGHT NOW.  I am so fucking sad, and angry all at the same time.  I hate my life.  I hate my life.  I hate my life.  I hate my life.  I hate my life.  I'm seriously wondering when it'll happen.  When I'll explode and just run away from here.  Just one day go 'click' - and go "Fuck it."  I'll just pick up and go.  I'll just run away from all of this.  So, I don't have any money.  So, I have nowhere to go except home to California.  What the fuck am I supposed to do?  We're planning a move to Florida - but all the dumbasses that I'm so ready to get away from are now suddenly wanting to come down with us.  Hold on here - Wait a second, What?  No, no no no.  That's not what the plan is here, folks.  You all are NOT coming with us.  NO fucking way.  No way in the fucking world, am I ever going to want to set foot in the same state as you crazy motherfuckers much as the same fucking house ever again.  No way.  Not fucking happening.  When you start fucking paying your rent, then maybe we'll talk.  But until then?  Fuck you.  I'm not going to spend my time bitching about some fucking freeloader that spends all their time mooching off hard-working individuals like me and my other half.  No fucking way.  Fuck you all and your fucking dogs too.  Seriously.  Missouri is full of retards and idiots, and I hope you all burn and die a terrible death.  I hate you all.

Fuck off and die, and hopefully, I will too.