I was battling to think of a title for this post.Not too sure what to call it.yes,I know that I havent posted anything worth reading in a while.But,I finally believe I have the answer.
I sat back and had thought for a while - I had found this wonderful forum,full of wonderful people,who at first were my 'cyber' friends - but now they are my real friends.This is a private place,but at the same time a very public place - you spread your thoughts across the page and air your views on day to day experiences and things that stir emotions.Those who read,are either in agreement with you - or against you.
The reason for my sudden absence?
In a word - a scary word - depression - the depths of which I have not experienced before.
I have not been clinically diagnosed,no need.I know the signs.
Listlessness
Insomnia
Restlessness
Ignorance of everything positive around you
Just cant be bothered anymore....

.....and then I made a decision.I called the hospital and asked them " Why do I feel this way?"
A simple question,as simple response - its the medication for your condition
So I had a choice,drop the dosage in the medication and suffer with the neuralgia that has plagued my life - but feel better.or continue with the current does of medication and feel the depressive effects for as long as is necessary.
I made my choice - the pain of the neuralgia is too much for me to handle - so i am staying on the current dose.
The depressive feeling I have in my mind and in my bones ???
Well, you know what?
I have found the will to succeed once again.
So as always - this is where i prove to myself that I am as stubborn as I had always thought
Wish me luck