• Lucytorial said on Oct 10, 2008....

  Yani ~ How has it ended so badly? I don't know much but sometimes taking a chance doesn't work, sometimes it does

• tsacluos said on Oct 10, 2008....

  it is better to have LOVED and be hurt than not to have any of those at all. Give it three months and you will feel a little better....meanwhile breath out, keep breathing out.

• queenparanoia said on Oct 10, 2008....

  {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

  how are you ate yani??? i miss you??? how are the kids??? do you still work at the call center?

  anyway, what can we do??? we do crazy things for love... just remember i'm here for you....

• travelr712 said on Oct 10, 2008....

  one of the hardest things people have to do in life is to learn to live without that love.

• yani said on Oct 10, 2008....

  Lucy, I laid it all out for him. I wasn't that kind of person at all, I don't know what came over me :) It was just that one day, I decided to just let it all out, give everything. It was exhilarating. It was addictive. You know, you start to give and then it just makes you feel better to give even more? Do I make sense? hahahaha
  
  tsacluos I hope those 3months are coming faster, it sure is difficult now hehehe im looking forward to those coming months. At this point, I don't think it can get any lower hahahaha.....
  
  queenparanoia the kids are great, thankfully :) I still work in that callcenter and things are looking up in that area. Love? yeah! It was definitely crazy! The craziest thing! Unbelievable!
  
  travelr712 Yep! Lear to live without it. That's what I'm doing right now. And who know, something brighter and better might be in store. I'm saying this right now, to myself:
                  ....take what little fire that is left in your heart and built a new bonfire out of it, bigger and brighter that what you had...... I hope I take heed. thank you for being here :)
  

• Misty_Eyed said on Oct 11, 2008....

  There WILL be something better in store: I believe that. The hard part is the agonizing wait between this and that, never knowing when or if it will really happen. But I bet you'll look back--when you're finally ready to trust the right person and open yourself up again--and you'll say, "Wow--I'm sure glad I didn't end up with so-and-so."
  
  Also, I think it helps to look at it this way: "failed" relationships aren't mistakes so much as part of a journey. Every step is a step closer to greater self-awareness and connectedness with other people who are even more worthy of your love.
  

• botoni said on Oct 12, 2008....

  Yani, I'm delighted beyond words to see you here but I'm so so sad for you at the same time.  It hurts immensely and it will continue to hurt for a good while.  You're to good a woman ot be saddened by an event like this.  I'm counting on you coming out ahead and being really happy and content in the very near future.

• yani said on Oct 12, 2008....

  Misty, thank you so much for those words, wow, they do make sense.....Every step is a step closer to greater self-awareness and connectedness with other people who are even more worthy of your love....... I am so looking forward to that time, a time when i think of him and it won't hurt anymore :)
  
  Botoni, gosh Botoni! Sometimes I wonder if im such a bad person that these things keep on happening to me. Why do i always end up with the wrong person :(  I am happy to be back here again, I guess this is the only place I have in the world where I can let out my pain, cos I always come back here when it hurts the most. Im glad to be back. Aside from the heart fiasco, everything else is great. Randy and I are even communicating with each other about the kids. I consider that as a heaven sent :)
  

• destinydiva said on Oct 13, 2008....

  yani, I hope I'm not getting confused, but if I remember right you were in quite a dangerous relationship? so however painful it is now... remind yourself often how painful the relationship was...  stay strong (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) xxx

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