dear chocolates,
i had a very shitty day today...
well, where should i start?
i found out today that my plan would not continue... well it's not really a plan. but a part of my plan... you see the family had this business idea... and well they want me to manage that business... not a big business but a small one.. concerning food. and oh well you know me chocolates... you know i want to be a pastry chef and this would be a great start...
after all, i have to start at the bottom to get myself to the top...
the problem is chocolates...
i think we would not continue it...
money problems... shit...
hardware business is not good right now and i dont blame my parents... life is pretty hard right now...
but just one bite from you and i know we'll figure something out... ;-)
and besides.. whatever happen i still want to be a pastry chef... so dont worry about me... i know you can always cheer me up...
and yeah family is okay. eventhough sometimes they drive me crazy... but hey that's family!!!! my sisters love the chocolate sauce that i made by the way!!! using my fellow soulcaster's mobil's recipe!!! yup!!! i'm adding butter every time i cook you!!!
and as you can see chocolates i'm still fat... ive been kinda depress when i lose my job and i ate a lot to comfort myself... but thankfully i have friends here in soulcast and in real life to help me cope with that... so who cares of another 10 pounds!!! i still love you chocolates!! i would not give you up!!!! i dont care if i get fat!!! and if i get some fucking pimples!!! yup pimples!!! i would still eat you!!!
and yeah tell your cousin milk chocolates to go fuck himself!!! i dont like milk chocolates!!! i mean sure they taste good... the first bite that is... but after that the fifth bite they taste like shit!!! too sweet!!! i want my chocolates to be sweet and bitter at the same time... just like me... i can be bitter yet sweet... ;-) and yeah if anybody gives me a damn flower i will throw them at their face!!! i want chocolates dammit!!!!!!!!
oh yeah i forgot to tell you i have my period today!!! yay!! as you know chocolates i have this problems with my ovaries.... but since the doctor pescribed me some pills i'm okay now. i having my period monthly... although it still kinda sucks cuz i have some cramps. but it's okay you make me feel better. just a bite of your uber-sinfully-delicious taste i feel so fucking great!!! eventhough i feel like i'm peeing blood cuz of this damn flow. i feel so fucking great because of you chocolates... by the way do i have something on my teeth??? and yeah that's my sister on the background... texting under the pillows... texting her boyfriend???lol!!!
oh... boyfriend... still zero... not ever... not once... well if you call the guys in the internet boyfriends.... well yeah i have them.. some lasted for months. but i feel like they are not real. remember the guy in denmark? he wanted me to go denmark... too bad i have no money... but he stopped... it was okay though... we realize that relationship would go nowhere... or what about my first love... the guy who turned me down... i turned to you for comfort... and you made me feel okay... i'm friends now with the first love cuz you made me realize that he was not meant for me... maybe someone will be there for me... i may not meet him yet but i know someone will be there for me... besides i'm not looking for anyone right now... i have to concentrate on loving myself first and reaching my goals... maybe someday i'll find him...
but for now chocolates your mine... you will be all mine... i would not share you!!! i would not care what everybody thinks!!! i love you chocolates!!!!! and your mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! your fucking mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i have a confession to make... i'm still inlove with ex...
my penis-shaped wood ashtray...
yup chocolates i'm still in lvoe with him... still seeing him on the side...
i can't help it chocolates... i can't choose between the both of you...
chocolates or penis???
oh shit...
i chose both!!! hope you won't mind...
youre always in my heart chocolates...
always... ;-)
love,
queenparanoia a.k.a. choco addict in soulcast
p.s.
to all soulcasters i hope this make you laugh i got the inspiration of this post from this video... which made lucy and missmimi laugh. i hope it could you cheer up too. by the way all the problems are real... well except the penis part...lol... yeah, i'm kinda depressed nowadays... but chocolates cheered up... ;-) so please eat some chocolates to make you feel happy...
keep on blogging!!!
