1st yes i am still gonna be seeing a new T bla bla bla.but today and especialy last couple hour's this bpd disoreded bitch is getting funky.i would/kinda wanna go into but....hey,wtf doe's it matter?i want my last T damnitt. and i am sorry....maybe it's the bpd in me,maybe it really is the fuckin reality.....but here goe's.YES i feel like they walked out on me,AND YES i am highly and extremely raging jealous of the client's they have now..............whatever anyone say's.....T obviously wanted to work with those ppl-old and new....wtf ever though.i still feel like a stupid worthless shit nothing.and new T?probley just give me a bunsha fuckin bullshit about it all.and seriously i've gotta admit i am doing this just to get some certain bitches off my ass.    that  last T.............no use going into it.like they give a goddamn fuck at all.they are now with client's they wanna work with,kept client's who have better worth than me.and omg.......that fucking $$$$ they must be rolling in.fuck it.i'm in a really funky foul fuckin mood.it's been 3 fuckin months today and instead of getting any easier-i'm just getting more depressed,wortless angry-raging,and fucking jealous.god-fucking-damnitt- is/will this bs ever let up a damn bit and go away at all.......i think the biggest fucked up thing i have ever done in year's was to even give this person a chance.but i wanted to get better.and i'm not blaming them but i feel about as shitty  more than i ever fucking have....