today is a very quiet day but my mind is screaming out...
My brother and i have not spoken since 4 years ago...
Today, I open my e-mail and find that i have a new message- I see the name that sent it. It was my brothers name. In bold letters it read his name. Cleanly print and sitting just so on the page. Hopefully, This is a sign that it will be okay. Everything will be okay.
I felt as if my heart might fall out of my chest and i felt as if someone was just playing a trick.
Most likely no one was playing a trick but at the sight of his name, i take a double-take. I try not to sound too gushy in my letter back to him; but im afraid that it didn't work. After you havn't so much as seen a glimse of heard the slightest bit about someone for 4 years... I think you honestly go a bit wacko.
I just can't imagine me and him seeing eachother again. What will i say? I never know what to say. I guess i'm a little bit angry at him because he has been gone so long, but he could be mad at me also cuz i've been gone just as long...
Strange, but without him, i always feel LOST!!!!... Screaming in my head.. Possesed feelings always come to me. What do i do? My mom never will allow me to see my brother because she would be jealous. My brother hates her, that is why he left me and his two half brothers... But maybe now, it will be better. Maybe it will all change and life will get better.
My brother was really smart to leave my mom's house. She makes anyone crazy!
