Should I be ashamed of myself because I am a bisexual female?  Should I bury my head in concrete because I want to practice the craft?  Should I shoot myself in the head because I had an abortion, and accidently killed a fetus inside of me with an overdose?  Perhaps I should forgive myself for my follies.  Perhaps the highest of all powers should forgive me as well.  Maybe there is no reason to feel anything but pride because I'm surviving all of this life so far.  Then again, there are days in which things are so wierd that I start to think that I am dead and on the other side.  I don't know exactly what to think at this point.  I still find myself attracted to both sexes.  Even so, I don't go trying to lay with anyone at this point.  That's something to be proud of, isn't it?  I lasted without sex since 2004 so far!  I think that's a wonderful thing.  Anyway, I feel like a bad person during some days.  On other days, I don't feel like I deserve the pain that I recieve in seeming punishment for my every breath.  I know that we all make mistakes.  I am no Goddess.  There is bound to be folly in my history.  For all I know, there may still be some in my future.  I can't handle being continuously tormented by voices, people, myelf, or higher powers because I made mistakes in my life.  Maybe that's why the people have poked at me over that one particular guy.  It's like ignorant people that shouldn't even know the bastard are fucking with me over him.  Hell, I heard the landlady make comments.  It's strange how people behave when they find something out about you.  I don't appreciate idiots like her and the rest of them trying to punish me emotionally about that one particular mistake I made over that one guy.  Do they really have nothing better to do but to scare me into silence?  I won't be silenced.  I'll mock them as they have mocked me.  I don't care what they found out.  What I have done in my life is none of their business.  It seems that the idiots are trying to scare me into swallowing more sleeping pills.  They should die tragic deaths for doing so.  That's karma.  I wasn't bothering them.  Fucking dumbass shit stain mother fuckers!!!  Should I be ashamed of all of the mistakes that I have made in my life, eternally or at all?  NO!  Ain't none of them bastards and bitches perfect either, so they best focus on their own damn lives and shit instead of mine before karma fucks them up their asses.