I know that the reason my Publisher's Clearinghouse emails came to me messed up was due to the fact that I tried to attempt a money spell.  It was awfully strange how it happened all around the same time.  I'm also wondering why it seems to be calming down now that I'm not doing a spell.  The only ways that someone would know that I was doing the spell would be if they could read my mind, could astral travel into my room, or if they are a diety or something else.  Since I stopped doing the spell in the middle of it, the wierd shit calmed down.  I also noticed that when I put the oil on by itself without burning the candle or incense or anything else being included that the wierd shit started up again.  The only person in this house other than me is my mother.  Could she be revealing to the nuisance that I am doing the spell?  That's something I never thought of.  I know that she doesn't seem too keen on me being into witchcraft.  I actually find it funny that she would seem to rather see me go back to church after I was locked up for seeing what I thought were angels behind that church back in 97.  It was because my mother called the cops that I ended up in the mental facility.  My beliefs back then were persecuted by both of my parents, a psychiatrist that diagnosed me as bipolar when I wasn't even suicidal at the time, and others.  I had to change my beliefs before anyone was willing to help me while I was under siege psychically and spiritually, which seems stupid to me.  Now they want me to turn back?  I remember what they did to me.  I forgive them for it, but still remember.  My bad memories haven't been banished.  They thought that they were right and I was wrong.  In some cases, they were possibly right.  Still, I don't want other people influencing my religious beliefs unless there's a damn good reason for it.  I noticed that threat to my rights though.  Whether someone wants me to get out of witchcraft or stay out of christianity, there's a threat to my liberty involved.  I'm not out harming a bunch of people.  I have done bad spells in the past.  I will admit that, but I was just starting out and learning too.  I have had to pay for it.  Hell, I even payed for it before I started picking up the witchcraft, so what the fuck?  Any way that I look at it, someone is trying to erase me.  If they can string me along like a puppet and keep changing me, I'll eventually be brainwashed to be obedient to them.  That's what they are thinking when they do that shit.  I'd rather die that be completely obedient and passive because I have a pussy instead of a fucking schlong.  I love my family, though don't think that I can trust them to have my best interests at heart.  I don't know who is on the other side of the net, manipulating my emotions by fucking with my emails, but they need to wake up.  If I hurt their feelings, I'm sorry.  I usually don't hurt someone's feelings until they deserve it though.  When someone blocks my ability to view two of my older favorite websites on top of that, I have a right to be peeved.  When I know that someone is violating my privacy enough to make fun of my private thoughts online, I still have a right to be outraged.  It ain't Jesus.  It's more like a devil doing it.  If so, perhaps he should let me sit on his face and then fart.  LOL.