silver_phoenix reads (4):
October 4, 2008

My Grandma passed away. My mom and I went to the hospital around 4 hours ago knowing that this may happen. I couldn't go in after hearing my dad describe her state. I have chosen to remember her as I've always seen her.

It happened when my aunt and dad left the room and during a test by the neurologist to check for brain activity. My dad said they didn't even have to decide what to do, she did it for them. I don't know exactly if there was any activity in her brain. My dad told my mom and I that she had been unconscious ever sense the heart attack. Now we wait for my dad and aunt to walk through the door.

May she rest in peace.


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  • MissMimi said on Oct 04, 2008....
    Oh silver...  I'm so sorry for your loss.  I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts.  {{{hug}}}
  • beyondtheveil said on Oct 04, 2008....
    I'll be thinking of you, phoenix. Let us know how you're doing.

    My condolences to you and all your family.
  • Lucytorial said on Oct 05, 2008....
    My heart felt condolences SP, my thoughts with your family.
  • pusscat said on Oct 05, 2008....
    Hello phoenix.  Nothing really quite prepares you does it?  I believe your gramma chose to 'go' whilst you were out of the room.  My friends mother-in-law appeared quite chirpy when the relatives were there but kept asking them to go and fetch different things for her.  She wanted to 'go' without them seeing it.  Each time someone popped back in the room cos they didn't want her to be on her own she perked up again.  Finally, when they had all left, she was able to 'leave in' peace.

    Your gramma is now in peace phoenix and will be forever grateful to you for remembering her as she was :-)  She couldn't have asked for a nicer granddaughter.  Bless you.
  • Jenna said on Oct 05, 2008....
    God bless Silver!
  • FutureGoddess said on Oct 05, 2008....
    You are in my thoughts, doll - I cannot say anything to make you feel differently, only wish that you find peace in remembering her life and love for you.  Blessed Be
  • diabolicdame said on Oct 05, 2008....
    I'm sorry for your loss silver phoenix.. my thoughts and prayers are with you.
  • Twylarants said on Oct 05, 2008....
    I'm so sorry for your loss, Silver....my sympathies to your family.
  • secretlife said on Oct 05, 2008....
    i'm so sorry honey.
    my prayers are with you and your family this morning.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Oct 05, 2008....
    I'm so sorry for your loss.  I know that words don't cover the sorrow you are feeling.
  • gingersoul said on Oct 05, 2008....
    My condolences, Silver..... 
  • RollingC said on Oct 05, 2008....
    My condolences to you Silver-Phoenix....the loss of a loved one is never easy.
    I'll keep her and your family in my prayers
    Rc
  • Hans72 said on Oct 05, 2008....
    I'm so sorry to hear that you've lost her.  
  • lionesss said on Oct 05, 2008....
    oh im so sorry to hear about your granma,,my granma was my best friend we were very close indeed, its so sad when you loose some1 so special,
    my thoughts are with you.........:)xxx
  • quietone said on Oct 05, 2008....
    bless silver and yes she is at peace now.  sorry for your family's loss.
  • mobil said on Oct 05, 2008....
    Life and death, it's all so confusing sometimes Silver, live a good, happy, full and productive life. That is what your grandma would want for you.....God Bless
  • Battycat said on Oct 05, 2008....
    So sorry silver, my great aunt passed away yesterday too. My prayers are with you and your family.
  • lalaine1 said on Oct 05, 2008....
    Sorry to hear that. I know how it feels, Sincere condolences from me... :(
  • CreativeWoman said on Oct 05, 2008....
    I'm so sorry for your loss.  You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

    CW
  • CayenneMan said on Oct 05, 2008....
        Sorry to get here late silver phoenix, I 'm sorry to hear about your loss but you need to stay strong and remember we will all be together again in a better place one day.
  • brandblog said on Oct 05, 2008....
    She is in heaven and in good hands. Condolences to you and your family...
  • moonriver said on Oct 05, 2008....
    phoenix, your grandma is at peace now. keep your best memories of her close to your heart.

  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 06, 2008....
    thank you all so very much for your words. i'd like to respond to each one of you. it may take me a while, but i'll do it. thanks again!
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 06, 2008....
    MissMimi- It means a lot to me for you to comment, thanks so much.

    beyond- I will definitely write more about this and what's happening now when I am emotionally up to it. thanks. :-)

    Lucy- thank you very much, I appreciate your comment a lot.

    pusscat- Nothing does really quite prepare you for it. I was totally taken aback by this. My grandma has been in great health considering her age (85) and has always been on top of her health. I truly thought she had it in her to keep fighting. I expected it from her. I've always thought she'd live well into her 90's. Thanks so much.
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 06, 2008....
    Jenna- thank you kindly for your blessings.

    FutureGoddess- thank you dear. You're right, sometimes words don't change a thing, but they do help comfort the soul.

    diabolicdame- thank you kindly for your sweet comment.

    Twylarants- I appreciate your comment a lot. Thank you.

    u-i: hello my friend. thanks so much. its been a really difficult time for us.


  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 06, 2008....
    ginger- thank you so much!

    RollingC- You're right, it's not easy. It breaks my heart.

    Hans72- Thank you--I'm still shocked it happened this way.

    lioness- It is icky! I wish she had had an easier time of it. This makes me dread the days when I lose the rest of my family and am left alone. I don't even wanna think about it.

  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 06, 2008....
    quietone- thank you, I truly hope she is at peace. She deserves it.

    mobil- That is why we are all continuing to go about our lives like we always have. I must admit that I have been distracted this past month and will probably continue to be for a while, but I will try to focus on what needs to get done.

    Battycat- thank you. sorry to hear of your loss. perhaps we are related and don't even know it. Bless you and yours.

    lalaine1- thanks for your sincere comment, I appreciate it.
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 06, 2008....
    CW- thank you dear. I appreciate your comment. It means a lot.

    CayenneMan- It's ok, it's never too late ever. I'm trying to be tough and not cry. I do a fairly decent job of it too. But when my dad cries, it breaks my heart and I cry too.

    brandblog- thanks, i hope she's happy now.

    moonriver- I really do hope she is at peace. I'm trying so hard to recollect all the times I spent with her when I was a kid. I'm having trouble remembering what I want though.

    secret- thank you. you made me tear up a bit--Grandma called me honey.
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 06, 2008....
    Again, everyone, I appreciate you taking the time to read my blog and offer your condolences. It's very nice of you!!
  • pusscat said on Oct 06, 2008....
    Once again phoenix you have just shown what a wonderful woman you are, replying to everyone here.  Bless you.

    Please give yourself time to grieve.  Don't hold back those tears.  They are our healing process.  Those tiny little tear ducts we possess are one of the most powerful little parts of our bodies and minds.  It's ok to cry now (((((( s_p ))))))
  • FlowersbyFarha said on Oct 07, 2008....
    So sorry for your loss.  Losing a grandma feels like losing part of your childhood.

    Big hugs.
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 07, 2008....
    pusscat- thank you for the compliment. everything you say is very meaningful and i appreciate it a lot. :-)

    Flowers- thank you, it is kind of like that. i hadn't thought of it that way before.
  • FlowersbyFarha said on Oct 07, 2008....
    My grandma died some years ago, and grandpa quite some years before that.  With her passing, I realized, yeah, a generation is gone.  I've never been good at keep up with family history and all that, but as my aunts and uncles are starting to go, and I'm getting up there, I'm much more aware of we loose when we lose our elders.

    I started a crazy-quilt patch because grandma quilted.  Somehow managed to end up with a blank spot in the middle and never could figure out how to finish if off.  Then I realized why I couldn't:  Grandma was the missing patch.

    Perhaps she had a hobby or craft that you also enjoy.  You could make something in her honor and think of the good times you shared or the things you learned from her.  Or write something.  It doesn't have to be art-- just from the heart.
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 08, 2008....
    Flowers- thats a really lovely idea. my grandma was a crafter. she did all sorts of things artistically speaking. i may do something, thank you.
  • FlowersbyFarha said on Oct 08, 2008....
    :-)

    hope it helps.

    Take care <<hugs>>
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 09, 2008....
    thank you again Flowers! hugs help :-)
  • FlowersbyFarha said on Oct 09, 2008....
    more <<hugs>>
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 12, 2008....
    aww, thank you again Flowers! you're so kind :-)
  • FlowersbyFarha said on Oct 13, 2008....
    Ok, last one <> :-)
  • silver_phoenix said on Oct 14, 2008....
    haha thanks :-D 
  • FlowersbyFarha said on Oct 14, 2008....
    Well, maybe one more < < hugs > >

    I just posted new blog, too  http://www.soulcast.com/post/show/159357/And-the-customer-said...

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