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I don't know about you but I am lazy and a horrible procrastinator.
I even made up a word that describes me: lazproc (yeah, it does sound like Prozac..maybe i need some...). I think that if I were a religious person and I believed in the Other World after death, i would go straigth to hell just for these two sins. I would be considered the longest and shameful sinner. I am lazy because i am always waiting the next day to do what i should do today and a procrastinator for exactly the same reason, because I am always hoping that my problems can fix themselves magically. I think these two are the painful, real, exact reasons of many of my failures and indecisons and steps back. I am addicted to them.

See, the ironic other side of story is that in any job related situation, i am the most punctual, trustworthy, efficent person. I have been known to work 12 hours a day for weeks, i have learned several new jobs without knwowing anything about them and discretely succeding with them too. I have been known to be professional and rieliabel.
Yet in my personal life, in the way i hanlde my finances and some of my personal and practical goals i am a sinner. I ballooned from 125 to 160 pounds during my pregnancy. I am back to wear the same jeans pre-baby so I know i can follow through. I can do it. I know how to be persistent on my goals.... its only that it takes a while to understand which ones they are.
I have ideas and projects and beutiful plans for my friends, my kid, i used to have for my ex, my girlfriend, everybody. They always come to me and thank me because I can see through what they need. I am a great coach, but not for myself. When at night i count the things that needed to be done and the ones i have achieved I can't help to get mad at me and feel ashamed. And here comes the healing power of the chocolate.....I have been driving around with my side mirror broken for 5 months: i used to scotchtape it to the other piece still attached to the cardoor. You knwo what it means with this scorching freaking heat we are having in Texas from May? That each morning the tape was basically melt and i have to taped the mirror again. And again, and again. Well, i finally went to the cardealer last week. And now i think: why in the hell i didn't go earlier? What was stopping me?

So, here my curiosity....how do you manage your list of personal goals? Did you achieve most of your goals in life? What about the decisions to take each day? Do you have somebody to rely on or you know how to take the right decision by youself? Do you relate with me?
I would like to hear from you....maybe someone is in my same position and this would make feel less of a freak...maybe someone will give me some good laughter to goes with.......


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  • iciabruxelles said on Aug 18, 2006....
    my name is iciabruxelles, and I am still a lazprocholic ...;>
  • gingersoul said on Aug 18, 2006....
    Ciao iciabruxelles...
    Do you like it? I mean ..being this way...what things in your life you feel or you are sure have been affected by our pathologial behavior? Sometimes, i noticed, i became restless and very snappy when i suddendly become aware that i spent another precious second-hour-day of my very short life (isn't life short for just being life?, even the longest one?) not doing what i want-suppose-expect to do.
    I am thinking to start seriously studying the subject...yep, one of this day...LOL
    Glad to hear i am not so alone..... :-)
  • iciabruxelles said on Aug 19, 2006....
    oie...for sure, i don't like it...i need treatment..asap!
  • silverwhisper said on Aug 19, 2006....
    ginger soul: i find it helpful sometimes to remember that work i don't do now can't be done later, but usually, that involves considerable interest into the bargain. :>

    ed
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Aug 19, 2006....
    I'll tell you later....
  • Lovethebeach said on Sep 03, 2006....
    I am very lazy. I hate it. It seriously impacts my life in a very negative fashion. I am sure mine isn't s personality trait, as I haven't always been this way. I think mine is a result of depression.
  • gingersoul said on Sep 03, 2006....
    LTB, i found that too....sometimes my laziness is a symptom of how deep in depression.....when i am in some depressed state of mind i feel like paralized.

    i can almost sense the arrival of a depression bout because i feel like i am going in hibernation. Its difficult to take any decision, even the most stupid like what to wear, switching telephone companies not mentioning facing decision very importan like how to lower my debts and work.

    i know i shoudl ask for some help but i feel like a loser if a start taking medications. i rarely take medications. i am pretty proud of this.

    You know, i always felt like i was alone in this condition. Maybe i liked to think at my depression like a romantic feeling, a la spleeen di Baudelaire, something so "tres chic" to have. The reality is that is not.

    At my worst, like these past weeks, i feel like a dumped trash bag. A loser that can't take any vital decision to control and direct her life and her dear ones. I am a very good actress though. Nobody around me notices anythig if i don't say.


    ~Hugs~
  • Lovethebeach said on Sep 03, 2006....
    Me too. I am a pretty good faker. The only noticeable thing that happens is I avoid most personal interaction with people..namely phone calls and visits. This weekend, I had the perfect excuse, I had surgery on Friday, and I used "I am in pain " as an excuse to not visit and phone people. I know my neighbors notice something's up , because for weeks I haven't been outside to visit..instead I am in hibernating. Luckliy, I still do well with the kids and my honey.
  • oneeyedqueen said on Apr 13, 2007....
    I am also a super lazy procrastinator. I am fairly intelligent and curious. I always have big plans and creative ideas but I have absolutley no ability to follow through. I am easily defeated and often feel angry or sad at my defeats but also for no apparent reason at all. I feel frozen. Indecicive, hypercritical, fatalistic, doomed and unhealthy. I too must be a great actress because people seem to find me facinating, sexy, fun, witty, etc. exactly the way I want to feel on the inside. I don't. I have erased and rewritten this four times and still am struggling with the concept of even posting it. Reading other posters is heartening and sad at the same time because I don't feel so alone, sortof. Now I can't pretend it is in my head though. Does anyone out there with this feeling feel like they might be exposed to toxic mold or candida albicans overgrowth in their body anywhere. Curious tidbit, I had severe "yeast infections" as a diapered child and as a newly* sexually active adult. (note*I am not new anymore.;) I am 31yo and became sexually active age 16).
  • gingersoul said on Apr 13, 2007....

    Hello Oneeyedqueen....interesting nickname ....nice to meet you.....

    Well, your profile fits the spot perfectly....welcome to the club....lol...

    But someday fun is not exactly what i would color this attitude....i try to face it like an addiction.....small steps at the time..small and broken down projects seems more easily attainable ...

    I think its the vastity of the big picture that scare us....so if the plan is fragmented there is hope to complete the task.....

    This goes side by side with another characteristic: the Peter Pan Syndrome.

    Who wants to grow up? Not me......:-)

    About your association with mold and candida......how did you associate these concepts with procrastination?.....

    Is in the meaning that something left not treated it evolves with the time in something toxic?

    Yes, SC is all in sharing and not feeling alone anymore....:-)

  • oneeyedqueen said on Apr 14, 2007....
    Thank you for answering. I will attemt to answer some of your questions. i started wondering about the fungus when i started reading the internet (of course). I have read a couple of places that toxic mold can be associated with fatigue and depression. Check out the CDC's (center for disease control) site. I have black mold in my house now, but i have had some of symptoms longer than this house so was wondering about the relationship between fungus and human emotion/experience. Wanna spin real far...think magic mushrooms but closer to "facts approved by popular culture and science", stick with the CDC. Ginger- sounds like you are very orderly and manage small bites, one at a time, well cut and chewed completely. i too manage this way but not so much order. i have realized that i can no longer do more than a couple of things in a day and those things are different than they used to be. i can not seem to hold my attention on the dishes so i only do a little at a time. Showering is now one of the "things I must" manage to get done instead of working an extra shift plus showering plus eating plus driving to work plus getting dressed plus feeding the dogs plus walking them plus make up and the phone ringing... now the phone does not ring, i couldnt hold even a part time job, making coffee is a big deal and thank goodness for kibble from a bag and a fenced yard or i would fail my rovers too. I just dont know what really changed in all this time except moving from dry hot dessert to wet warm then wet cold now i am sick. gosh also thank goodness for a sweetie who is so oblivious just pays the bills and sleeps.
  • JadeLondon said on Aug 11, 2009....
    I believe some of my procrastination is spawned by this perfectionist streak which resides within me. But sometimes, I procrastinate things that I fear, for whatever reason. Yes, anxiety does factor largely into my laziness.

    There will be things that I know need to be done, and I will let it eat at me every day, but will sometimes wait days, even months or years, before completing the task.

    An excellent example would be a molar I have that needs extracting. I've known about the cavity since it was a wee thing, hardly visible to the naked eye. But it is only now, some eight years later that I am considering treatment. Rather than a simple drill and fill, I will need to sit through an extraction because I don't want to go through the pain and trauma of a root canal and crown work. I hate the dentist, and although I am fortunate to have rather healthy teeth, my few visits left me leery. Now, I'm going to need to sit through something even more traumatic than it would have been eight years ago. Stupid, I know. It's just now starting to bother me, but the thought of sitting through another root canal leaves me filled with dread. I know an extraction won't be fun either, but because I've procrastinated it, I suppose it's my punishment.

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a post for gingersoul and javadewd... :-)

i just wanna say my point of view since i was the example in your conversation... :-)...
and trundled off to the jungle.....tweet,tweet,tweet...
Oh well..I am supposed to clean the house and....i am here on SC
I am supposed to pay some bills and....i am not
I am supposed to............
Another day in the office...slacking off...