Ugh, I have no idea what just happened and I'm worried about it. Some background on this first. I sent an email to my mean bad friend a month ago to ask him if he was going to play this game he had mentioned to me awhile ago. Also this week I've been seriously more moody then I can remember usually being before I have girl problems, I got really depressed, a lot of my issues were bringing me down and I got worn out pretty fast. Today was the second day I've felt more normal. So who calls me twice today, my mean bad friend. I was out with my friend and I couldn't answer, but when I checked my phone omg I got so nervious and excited. I decided to call him back before I went home.
Now here's what happened. Soo he answered and we started chatting and catching up with each other. It was nice and he was teasing me and we were having fun, with some silent pauses while I kept thinking of something to say. Toward the end of our conversation I started to feel sentimental and started asking him if we could get together for our birthdays. I was hoping during our conversation sometime he'd give me a clue more on how he felt about me, say something sweet at least, but no it was all very friendly so I finally let my girl ness take over.
I'd say something like "Soo oh never mind."
He'd say something like "what? Just tell me already."
I'd say "nah never mind"
He'd say something like "Come on, I know you want to."
So then I'd let it out kind of. I started out with "Well I've known you how long......and you know how I feel about you right?"
I don't think he said anything to that, then there was more, oh never minds, by me and him telling me to tell him. So we started talking about something else and it led to me saying "See you should email me more or call me."
He'd say "You know I hardly call any of my friends."
I'd say "Ya I know, but I'm specialier right?"
He said something like "I don't know. I probably talk to you more then any of my other friends. Especially not for hours."
For some reason that wasn't enough for me. I started in with my oh never minds and he started to get grumpy and say to just tell him. So then I finally just let it out. "Oh fine, so do you like me or not?"
Him "Omg I hate you right now." Then he started teasing me, something about me being racist, and anything else he could think of to avoid the issue. So I played along, and said things like "You know how I get." and "Don't hate me cause I'm a girl and I'm moody cause of girl problems right now."
He'd say "That be a silly reason to hate you." and "Ya I know how girls get."
Then I asked "Soo you didn't answer my question."
He'd say something like "I'll write it in my memiors" or "I did answer it, you just don't want to hear it."
I think I said "Well you don't make things very clear for me, I'm quite blind you know." He said something like "Then it'll be a mystery." So I left it at that and agreed it be a mystery. Ugh boys. He said he was gonna go, but I wanted to know about our birthdays. He said "We can get together any time, doesn't have to be our birthdays, it be nice if my parents told me when they left so I could tell you."
Did I totally just freak him out? He sent me an email before he had called me twice, it's a really nice email too. Did I just mess this all up? How in the world do I fix it? I can see how I pressed way to much and if I had only seen his email before I called, then I'd see he was being sweet. Blah I kind of hate me now too, I have all week actually. I don't know why my issues had to esculate so much with my regular moodyness. I'm sure that's part of what led to this silly ness I put on him. I wanna go hide now.
