i'm writing this post to clear my head about this decision that have weighing in my mind for a long time. and i'm a type of person that plans everything... so here it goes...
i think some people here are wondering what ive been doing since i lost my job...
what is the next step for the queen of paranoia???
for now ive been lazy... so lazy that i barely leave my room... playing games all day long... watching t.v. all day long...
and now here i am writing this post to break this habit and finally decide why i should choose to be a pastry chef...
if you know me for a first time you might wonder why i choose the pastry arts... since i studied chemical engineering (and didnt graduate lol). anyway here are my reasons...
the night when i decided to quit school i was laying in bed and just staring at the ceiling. and then a picture of a cupcake appeared on my head...
the next day i told my favorite teacher that i'm gonna quit school... she gave me some good advice on what to do next... like for me she said it would be better if i start a business. a bakery for example...
suddenly a light bulb (like the one in cartoons) appeared on my head....
i don't know if it make perfect sense to anybody but it did for me...
next is that by experince i realize i'm an entrepreneur type of person... i want to be my own boss... i always think of a product if i could sell it. i always asked questions before i believe in a product. i always think of the majority would buy this... and so on... i guess i got it both from my parents since they had their own business.... (dad has hardware, mom helps in hardware and sometimes have her catering business).
when i was young i already know how to sell stuff... eventhough i was shy (until today i'm still kinda shy) when i was a kid i always thought i would either be a scientist or a businesswoman. eventhough i don't know much what they do for a living. and when i was in high school i have this small business... i would buy groceries after school... mostly snacks and candies.... and then the next morning i would sell it to my classmates... i did for months but got tired of it cuz i was graduating...
and i love cooking... i would eat what i cook... i trust what i cook... i trust my taste buds. i remembered i had so much fun when we have cooking class on high school... looking back i wished i should have taken culinary arts or hotel and restaurant management as my course... but then looking back nobody was guiding me... (until today) i was so lost in those days and just took my father's advice and took chemical engineering... but i didnt regret that because those were some of the best years of my life...
baking is about precision... control... you need to be precise and have control over the ingredients and the temperature etc... and i like that.... i'm a control freak... well a little bit and i love that in baking you could take control...
pastry arts.... yes the name itself... it's pastry!!! everybody loves pastries!!!! and yes it is art.... have you seen the latest wedding cake lately??? pure art... ;-) i love it!!!
i feel better after a dessert. do i need to explain that? lol...
i love it when people tell me they love what i cooked... and i love it more when they critisize! so i can learn more!!!
i dont get tired when cooking... it's actually a stress reliever for me... i know it's weird but i love it... i may not be the best cook but i love cooking...
honestly the food business is the most rewarding... why? because everybody eats... it might be a risk but it's worth it...
i have high respect for food... i admit i use to be (well sometimes i feel i still am) an overeater... i eat a lot when i'm emotional... but after realizing that i need to deal with this disorder, the first step is to respect food... and now i do that... that's why i feel bad when food is wasted... just remember how many straving people out there. and food is a pleasure.... and i want to be a memorable experience when people eat the pastries that i make... ;-) for example my sister told me she found a store in a mall that sell the same pastries i made a week ago! and she said mine was better!!!
and lastly...
because it feels right... yes the most important reason for me... i feel like this is what i meant to do... does that make any sense for you? because it does perfect sense to me...
yes... i will be a pastry chef... ;-)
even if it take me years to do so!!!
well i hope you guys have a great weekend!!!
keep on blogging!!!
