I know that, over time, a lot of people take a romantic partner for granted. It's easy to do in this life with its hectic trappings.
But somehow, even as time passes, I find myself more enchanted than ever, if such a thing is even possible.
He is the last (and sometimes the only) touch in my soul before sleep takes me, and is the first most welcome thought in the morning.
It's the sweeping, amazing things...like his incredible strength in times of strain, a strength he lends freely to those he loves...his patience...his ability to see what other people miss. Encouragement...self-sacrifice...determination...gentleness...stability.
And it's the smaller things that aren't really so small after all. Caring about my day, even when it's virtually the same as the one that came before it. Not taking a bad day out on me even when it would be easy to lash out at everyone within striking range. Making time to talk amidst the chaos. Humoring my silly moments -- and there are a lot of those!
In short, he is the difference between existing and living. Between drifting and knowing my course (and having the courage to steer where I desire to go). Between that incredible, sharply constant loneliness...and a fulfillment, a rightness, a completion I could never have fathomed before.
I was not a weak person before him. But the strength of one, stretched across all areas of life, pales in comparison to strength more than doubled by a true companion's loving presence. Just knowing he's there is a comfort and a help on difficult days. What did I ever do without him?
I could go on (forever!) but little one is asking for lunch. So I guess I'll just say that I know I never did anything, in this lifetime or any other, that made me worthy of someone like that -- and I won't take him for granted. He is rare and precious, my joyful river, mirror of my soul, and I'm grateful every day for yet another day of love, even when surrounding circumstances are rough.
the_infernal_optimist posted on Oct 03, 2008
| views: 380
Comments
-
queenparanoia said on Oct 03, 2008....
this is so sweet.... this is what i want someday... someone like this... awww infernal i never knew youre such a romantic... or did hubby made you a romantic??? anyway sweet post... ;-) -
uniquely-ironic said on Oct 03, 2008....
that's beautiful TIO. Can I borrow this for future weddings? I love the analogy about strength. -
starchini said on Oct 03, 2008....
wow. i wish i could write like that. Im jealous. -
Mr_Box said on Oct 03, 2008....
Beautiful. I know he feels the same exact way.....Some days just suck and feel like too much, but if you've got someone like that in your life, it makes it all worth it. -
the_infernal_optimist said on Oct 03, 2008....
queenie: Maybe you'll meet a fellow pastry chef who will sweep you off your feet! ;-) I try to hide my mushy side, but I'm a closet romantic...and no, he didn't make me this way. I think he's allergic to romantic stuff. ;-)
Leafy: Thank you. You can swipe anything you think is worthwhile, always.
star: And the thing is, I always come away feeling like I haven't done justice to how I feel or to the man my stumbling words represent! :-p
Jaxl: Thank you. :) Yeah, those rough days suck a lot -- but hopefully nobody will have too many of them in a row, and even when it happens like that, it's so much better if you have someone to share with.
~Infernal
-
PAPERBACKWRITER said on Oct 03, 2008....
Beautiful words, dearest infernal.You have such clarity, warmth and love, that I so admire.Reading you is finding peace.paper ~ -
Battycat said on Oct 03, 2008....
Thats lovely, a wonderful tribute - you're very lucky :-) -
Me-Myself&I said on Oct 03, 2008....
oh wow *smile* so much love! i'm jealous too but not your writing but your love. the things you described ....gentleness, encouragement, patience.... huh ....I want that too. lol... and you got it. sigh
beautfully written, thank you for the insight. wow *smile* you are just too cool take care have a good weekend. ~ see ya
-
the_infernal_optimist said on Oct 03, 2008....
Paper: Thank you, my friend. :) ((hugs))
Batty: I am lucky! Hopefully I can return at least a small fraction of that to his life.
MM&I: And I want that for you. Have a good weekend over there, too!
~Infernal
-
steppenwolf68 said on Oct 03, 2008....
Beautiful! You're really very lucky. It always gives me hope when I learn that someone is happy and in love with their partner. Says a lot for you too! It takes two to tango....I hope you never loose what you have.... -
Twylarants said on Oct 03, 2008....
Just beautiful, Ferny...really. Your kids are lucky to be growing up in your home. -
RollingC said on Oct 03, 2008....
What a beautiful post. What you're talking about is true LOVE and everything else pales by comparison.I had that for a time and I should be so lucky to re-capture it.May it last long and be fruitful.Rc -
destinydiva said on Oct 04, 2008....
awww this is such a sweet post, your a lucky lady infernal :-) ..hows the pregnancy coming on? :-) xx -
diabolicdame said on Oct 04, 2008....
How wonderful infernal!! I hope you continue to be blessed with more love and happiness always! :-) -
MissMimi said on Oct 09, 2008....
I don't know how I missed this. This is a beautiful love letter, infernal. I hope you will show it to him. It'll warm his heart for a long time. My wish for you is this feeling deepens and grows the longer you are married.
Comment on "I keep falling in love"
Related Posts:
hairbrushedhubby
posted 1 day ago
| views: 83
|
I just want everyone to know that my darling wife and I celebrated our 34th wedding anniversary yesterday, they have been the best year's of my life and I pray that our dear God will bless us with health and age to do another 34. together.... read entire post
nammiev
posted about 9 hours ago
| views: 17
|
So i have decided it is time to stop all contact with my father, I don't often write or talk about him, As far as i can remember he is not in many if any of my blogs.... read entire post