Why do some men insist on taunting a woman about being broke?  Yes.  I am broke now.  Will it be like that forever?  I surely hope not.  The only thing that I have is my EBT card.  Still, I'm surviving for now.  I hope to win the SSDI case.  If I don't I don't plan on trying to wait anymore after this appeal.  I will attempt to work again despite hell.  I won't be broke forever.  What, is someone planning on sueing me?  They ain't getting much if anything at all.  I think that these guys are trying to scare me into killing myself by playing out my worst fear.  I noticed that other people have done this same sort of thing.  Still, nothing.  It's like it's all a bunch of lip service.  The only thing I think that anyone can get mad at is something I said online while paranoid and off medication.  I think it's easy to say that I am a schizophrenic, considering I was feeling like that guy was following me because other guys that reminded me of him were acting peculiar.  I also thought other people were following me at the time.  That's before the mind reading shit happened in spades.  I was paranoid, not necessarily trying to smear anyone.  I made that clear online on the same webpage that I mentioned the guy.  Hell, anyway I was acting almost as if the guy was my savior anyway, making an ass of myself.  WTF.  The fact of the matter is that I can't change the past.  I can only hope to live for the future.  I don't appreciate stupid peers of mine talking alot of shit just to make themselves feel superior.  I made a mistake due to my mental illness.  I made alot of them while I was off meds and not getting any treatment for those 7 years I lived with my father.  I couldn't afford the meds or the therapy.  Down here, mental healthcare is better.  There are places in which the state can pay for most of the treatment.  Now the drug companies help you out if you're low income by charging a minimal fee for a three months' supply of medication.  I did manage to get some treatment after moving to Newark until my ex-fiance said that they were going to cut his hours and that I needed to go back to work.  Anyway, I wish that the guys that are stupid enough to start harassing me about this money shit would grow up or something.  Sure, I would love to be a millionare.  Money isn't the only thing there is though.  It sure helps, but it's not the only thing to live for.  I think that they were trying to get me upset.  It just pissed me off.  I think that they are fucking stupid anyway.  If they want to bother a woman because she refuses to spread her damn legs at this point for anyone, then they are no better than the guys I dated.  I don't need them.