I guess you can say sobbing has been a main factor of meeting you. Happiness? It only exists when you truly mean what you are saying which maybe is half the time. Trust? Barely is left for you. Open your eyes because I'm not the problem here, you are. Cheating twice? Didn't you learn from the first mistake? I guess not, since last night you have another girlfriend, not me.No phone calls, no text replies, I guess you have moved on without even telling me. I find it funny how you cried saying you didn't want to loose me when you are pushing me away even more by the second. I said I loved you and I meant it. You said you loved me, you went to another girl.You said I never knew what happiness was. I never knew what it was with you. Every time you said "I love you" it didn't feel real, every time you said forever it felt like tomorrow, because every time I said "I love you" to you it felt like I lost a piece of my heart. If I could give you a penny for every time you hurt me or broke me down you'd have over 5000 pennies. Yet through all this I stay by your side. I still tell you I love you. But why? I ask myself everyday why do I put myself through all of it? Then I realize love conquers all. Even at the worst moments you find yourself falling completely apart but still trying to keep yourself together because you still love that person. You can still imagine yourself with them for the rest of your life. But sometimes the feeling goes away for a small amount of time, during that time there's no feeling, like a sigh of relief. Stephen Michael Olson, you don't know me and I wish you did, I love you more than anything and everything; seeing you with those other girls feels like a knife stabbing me over 10 times. I love you, I swear to god I do. I want to express it in so many ways, but I can't these feelings feel like exploding out of me, but there are no words to explain how strong they are. The power of love and life is the strongest feelings you will ever feel; yet the feelings you will never understand. They say heartbreaks are the worst feeling, but it's not. Try not being able to say good-bye to the person you love before it's too late. Being able to tell them everything before they are gone. Maybe there are feeling that are worse. Maybe there aren't. But as of right now, all I can say is that life has a meaning that nothing else has. Life is like a game the only way you loose is if you purposely take yourself out of the game. Stay in the game, play it hard. Never give up because things will get better.
-AsmaHeartAttack.
-AsmaHeartAttack.
