ok......honestly, i never did clean those windows. no sooner did i get off the computer that the sun went behind some clouds and that's where it stayed most of the day. until it rained of course. i was in a shitty mood by the time i had to leave for work. everything bothered me....i know im not pms-in so it just must be me. i had a bunch of errands to do before work so had to get my but in gear and head out early. i got them all done with ten minutes to spare. when i first got to work i was thinking how it was going to be a crappy day...but, it wasn't so bad. after a bit i actually found myself enjoying it and the bad mood was lifted. i hate having to work the second shift. it seems like i have to wait around all day just to go to work.
so.......i heard my "friend"came around today. i really wish i had gotten to see him but i really don't know what i would have said anyway. i'm kinda pissed at him. and i really shouldn't be. oh well.......fuck it....
fuck it.........that's kinda how i am feeling about most things lately. sometimes, it's like no matter what you do...how hard you work ......at anything...that sometimes, it just doesnt work out....but.....well fuck it. fuck the house, the laundry the husband the kids the job...all of it. i just think i'm generally pissed at everyone. sometimes they are so inconsiderate. most of the time.......what am i saying sometimes???!!! i'm so glad i am working just so i can get out of here sometimes.
don't get me wrong......i love most of it...but not today. not yesterday either....haaaaaaaaa....maybe it's the rain....or them being inconsiderate. i am talking in circles...but i guess im tired.....and what is it with my husband pushing the bath mat in the shower out of the way??? and leaving in all scrunched up??????? he does it every time!! and i get in there and gotta straighten it out........it's all wet and cold and yucky. i gave him three strikes this week ...........and he's got 2!!! i told him im gonna put a combination lock on the door........(2 my powder room!!) and he will never be able to use it again. haaaaaa...
he's been better.......he says he's changed. but i am still waiting to see it. he has been going to work.....but that's the only change that i see. i don't care anyway. i just take one day at a time and otherwise............you know........fuck it!
so..........something good happened. a friend from work game me a few pairs of jeans that she has ummmmmmmmm........"outgrown".....i looked at them and said to myself....oh these will never fit....so when i went home, i tried them on......and each pair fit. except one...and that..........was too BIG!! so i was thinking....oh these are too tight. you know they are that stretchy denim material....well........so i had a pair on and was gonna wear it to work. then i thought......noooooo they are tooooo tight....so when i got home my son was here with a friend...(a girl...) and i said......listen guys, i'm gonna try these pants on and you tell me if they are too tight. and be honest cause it's ok....well......anyway....when i came out they had these big grins on their faces...and i was like ..........What??? and they told me that they looked awesome. my son went on making this little skit about me and work....and the jeans....they made me feel so oooooooo......good. and when the girl left she said...and i quote........"seriously........wear those pants tomarrow." and you know what..........i'm gonna!
im in a better mood now......!!!
