mon 1 oct 08
mafiosi... pay attention to aircraft, all kinds.
a bit more yeats, from The Stolen Child:
Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world's more full of weeping
than you can understand.
so, the FBI let the 55-year-worm with multiple illnesses stay OUTSIDE again last night, for the 7th time. this is not fascist or classist or sexist, is it? REMEMBER I AM THE VICTIM. I COMMITTED NO CRIME.
this situation ABOUNDS with paradoxes:
the innocent one treated like a criminal
guys who love me joining in the abuse
citizens of turners and greenfield helping to protect me from the bullet (and
many of them get PAID), yet turning away when i am left outside, or
left without money, or left on the sidewalk in excruciating pain, or
whatever the momentary abuse happens to be. no one lets me in, no
one brings a blanket or a hot drink. they are living out the FBI dictum
that all forms of abuse that are not the mafia's bullet are acceptable.
Don't associate with her, she'll get shot. don't be kind to her, YOU'LL get shot. sit back and watch us abuse her and say not a word. we are the FBI, we know best. what we do is NOT abuse, it is keeping a bullet out of her head. I PREFER THE BULLET TO SEVEN MONTHS OF PSYCHOLOGICAL HELL. i said that to a man this morning, and he agreed with me.
the folk of turners and greenfield turn their consciences on and off with switches as easily as the big law kids do, as easily as the guys in love do, as easily as my two so-called "friends" do, as easily as just about every non-autistic person i've ever known has done. NOW I DO TOO. NOW I BETRAY. NOW I DON'T CARE. I WAS BOTH DISPOSABLE AND BETRAYABLE TO EVERYONE, AS LONG AS THE BULLET WAS AVOIDED. ANY OTHER DEATH IS A.O.K.
