ok let me think.... including today it has been 5 days since its completely over ... just be friends

 

each day is gettin worse rather than better, i wanna sleep cos all i do is think about her but then i dont wanna go to sleep cos then i gotta wake up and i dont wnna wake up cos reality hits home and my heart is broken again

 

i love her with all my heart and soul, and i value her friendship so much, she is my best friend, and i want to always be her friend, is better than not having her at all,she is such a beautiful person it would be devastating if she wasnt part of my life

 

but what if i cant control my feelings and bein her friend just isnt enough and i find it so painful that i cant be her friend at all

 

i dont wanna be upset infront of her as i love her so much i dont wanna hurt her and it makes me more upset that she is upset

but she is my best friend and is the only one who can hold me and tell me its all gonna be ok

feel like my world has ended

 

xxx