I sat down to write over the weekend, started an entry, had to leave it unfinished and before I could get back to it my husband accidentally wiped it.   It took me two days to feel up to getting back to it.

My son found an unwrapped king sized Snickers on the coffee table Friday night and started to chew on it and carry it around in his mouth like a dog.  that was hilarious.  He's also been playing with blow pops.  My husband had a large bag of them he'd purchased at work and our son likes to swing them around and bang them on things.

My goddaughter came over last night and stayed for 3 hours.  My husband cooked dinner and it just sat there getting cold because we didn't have enough to feed her...or rather my husband was tired of cooking for her and her just expecting it.  She complained about her family and how horrible they were and I told her to get over it.  Fifty percent of her problem is her fault.  Her behavior is very childish and petty.  I get tired of hearing the negativity and her attitude and I really don't want that spirit brought into my home.

She was complaining to me over the phone on the weekend and I told her to get counseling because I can't keep giving her advice, I don't have all the answers, and I want her to get help making her life better.  She complained about that at first but finally relented and will be going to see someone in the next week or so.

I also told her Friday night (I think it was Friday) that I'm not feeling well emotionally or physically (which I'm not) and I'm nut up  for company and that I won't be up for much company for a while.   Really I can't handle the stress of her being here especially with her aggravating my husband and trying to do whatever she wants with my son.

While she was here last night she plopped in the main entryway into the living room and didn't move.  Nobody could get in and out of the living room without walking behind furniture and she didn't care.  She also tried to take my son and let him climb the stairs "for fun" and I told her no. 

I don't want to talk about her anymore and how aggravating she is because it's aggravating.  I had a good weekend otherwise.  My husband and son and I went to the gun show which was interesting but not spectacular.  It was like being in several pawn shops at once to be honest.  Some of the beautiful old rifles were in such poor condition it was sad and many of the vendors just had a creepy feeling to them.  One thing that really shocked me was the booth selling WWII Nazi items.  There were some Japanese WWII items and of course several of the old German WWII guns but when you start displaying for sale things that would have been carried by a German officer in a convention crowded with WWII vets you can't be anymore brazen and disrespectful in my opinion anyway.  We left after that.

We went to dinner at a Chinese buffet and our waiter spent time playing with our son even at one point picking him up and taking him to the front of the house (we could see him the whole time) and letting one of the waitresses and the hostess play with him too.  Later he gave him a fruit called a Dragon's Eye and when our son tasted it he couldn't get enough so the waiter brought him several more.  Those fruit were not on the menu and can't be bought in the stores here so to do that was very sweet of him.  I love the sense of community and family among the Asian people and I'm happy to be a part of that now.  I've never known such a sense of community, warmth, and acceptance. 

My dad came by last night.  I guess he tried to last weekend but couldn't find our new house.  That was probably the nicest conversation with the least tension I've had with my dad in a while.  Don't misunderstand though, he's still got my daughter and I'm very guarded about what I say around him, however, I will not deny my grandson access to his grandfather. 

As far as things with my daughter go...I still haven't seen or talked to her in days and I miss her so much.  The courts though, have appointed me an attorney so I'm hoping things will move more quickly and finally in my favor.  I would give anything to be able to see her and spend time with her over the holidays which isn't going to happen without court interference.

My sister invited us to come and spend Thanksgiving in Vegas with her and her family.  As much as I'd love to I don't think we can afford it though we aren't saying no just yet.  What matters the most is the invitation and I think she realizes this.  Thanksgiving day is also my son's first birthday and she and her husband and my nieces will stop in on their way back home to see us if we can't make it down to Vegas to see them.  I'm grateful for my sister.  She's been a big support to me and is the only family member I feel close to anymore.  She's also the only one I feel I can trust.  Last year at this time I didn't have much of a relationship with her and hadn't for years.  I feel I've missed out on a lot but I'm determined not to ever miss out again.