Yes and I feel terrible.

Some may feel it that way but others are just perky and cool about it. Trying out things for the first time makes me feel overwhelmed that I doubt what I do and I feel stupid in even trying and might as well give up for that dumb reason, But I really love to try and do exciting things...Alright I'll spill it all. Here's a list.

• I need to exercise
• Study Harder than what I am expected to do
• Be a good girl

• Get a boyfriend

Well it was suppose to be a long list but I guess I haven't thought enough about what I want to do. At times I get depressed on what I do then end up unable to finish the things I hoped to start. Sometimes I feel weirded out or become entrance while listening to my favorite music. I've become so imaginative that I confuse everything with my feelings. I think I am in Angst but I can't help myself feeling so restraint all the time.

GEEZ! My family life is so annoying ever since my brother left for abroad my father keeps on asking whether his online or not and I keep telling dad "No, it ain't big brother. Leave me alone!"  It pisses me off. I hate myself. ugh!