today is the start of our mock calls... to some of you who doesn't know my job yet i'm a call center agent...
at first i was kinda confident about it. but my coworkers were teasing me (the assholes one) i lose my concentration... messed it up... made a complete fucking fool of myself...
i was so emotional!!! i would want to curse and punch someone after that but instead i went to the bathroom and cry.. (i would rather cry than get fired by being punching and cursing someone.)
i went to our trainor afterwards to explain myself... instead i cried in front of her andd in front of my coworkers...
what the fuck i was too emotional!!!
at that moment i was really hard on myself... i have this high expectation that i could this and then if i justmade a little mistake my concentration is broken and i fell apart...
shit...
after that, we had a meeting... i stop crying then... thank goodness some of my coworkers where funny and the tried to make me laugh... i said some cuz there this asshole who made me more angry... that asshole who keep teasing me while i was doing the call... the egonistic asshole who i think is not taking a bath...
the fucktard sat beside me and he smells...
ewwww i know...
anyway i feel better after that... i would try better tomorrow... no.... i will do my best tomorrow!!!
it's just me... i'm hard on myself...i know i should stopping doing that but it's a hard habit to break...
another surprise was from my male coworker.... i thought that this male coworker was an asshole... well i guess my first impression of him was. he was actually really nice and taught me on what i did wrong... he never laughed at me when i cried. (the other asshole did). anyway it's nice that there's a guy like him who isn't so egosistical prick like the other one...
this is really a tiring day...
too many emotions... but tonight i think it would be better... me and the family and my friend are going to watch a movie tonight... (yay) after that i can call my friend to teach me with some pointer in taking some calls.... it's not easy at it seem...
well, that's my day today... it's not so nice at the start but i think it's gonna end well...
and tomorrow i would do my best!!!
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