Do you ever feel left behind?
Apparently its the story of my life, i always seem to be the LAST.
The last to know, the last to see, the last to meet, the last to be old enough, the last to go.
I think its my fate. I was born on the very final day of the school year. ^ hours later and i would have been in the year below me. Now other than turning 18 my birthday has never really bothered me but i think it has magical connections to everything else in my life. There is no other explanation as to why i am always LAST.
As far as i can remember ive only been the first once in my life. I was the first in my class to learn my timestables up to 12. That was when i was 8. It was a big acheivement then but now it doesnt really offer much consolation.
But this is by far the worst ive felt for being last ever.
Not being 18 irritated me cos i felt i was missing out but i still went out with my friends and did other things but this.
This is killing me.
Everyone has gone. They are all off starting there new life or carrying on where they left off.
And im stuck here with another 5 days before i go to university. that doesnt sound very long but when you are sat in your room every night alone with no one to talk to because they are all miles and miles away, and you know they aren't thinking about you, well its enough to make you cry.
Lonely doesnt even begin to describe it.
