I am definitely a sad bear. Why... I wish I could tell you.
No, really. I wish I could.
I don't think i could really write about it here on Soul Cast... because it would be read by people that I don't want to read my Soul Cast. Thus - defeating the purpose of online blogging. Sad. Bear.
I want to come out and say whatever I'm thinking - I've already cried 3 times in the pats 24 hours. I cried myself to sleep last night... unbeknownst to the woman in bed next to me. She probably knows now, though. I cried today in bed while waiting for her to finish showering, and I cried my eyes out, sobbing silently yet uncontrollably in the shower. I had to sit down and then lay down in the shower, letting the hot water scald away all my pain.
Unfortunately, it was only a temporary fix.
Now, I'm burning with anger, crying out of frustration, and shaking with grief. I'm sad, angry, frustrated, confused, and sharply pained. I'm so fucking pissed, I want to scream, yet at the same time, I'm falling apart with despair.
What do you do, when the person that you want to wipe your tears away, is making them fall from your eyes onto your face?
I am a confused bear.
I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to say it. I don't know how to display it. I don't know how to do it, without creating a fight or an argument. Some of the topics have been covered before - some of them have not. Some of them have been covered with other people... and some are just circling around in my head.
I am a sad bear.
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Saturnalia posted on Sep 20, 2008
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killingme4u said on Sep 20, 2008....
hey sad bear.i'm sad to.but i can' and don't dump here anymore.i go to livejournal where no one bothers at all. anyway i'm where you are with wanting someone to wipe my tears away but they are the one making me cry so damn much.i'm not good at this commenting stuff.but your post hit me.i'm glad you did it.i can't relate to all those feeling's you got going on.i use to vent for real here.but i'm way to uncomfortable to do it now. i hope you feel better. ttyl i hope. :))))) -
Me-Myself&I said on Sep 20, 2008....
Bless your hearts! take care and peace to you BOTH. *smile* i understand -
zykore said on Sep 21, 2008....
endure your pain, its a beauty in disguise. one day, and there will be a day, you'll read this again, and wish you'd done it earlier. -
andora said on Sep 21, 2008....
our authentic truth has been hidden behind the guilt that says we should have a smile and kind word no matter what. this has created a pandemic of souls who live in an estranged vacuum of self. of course you are sad, it is terrible to be estranged within a sexual relationship because this person goes to our core. when we cannot be our authentic self in this context, then we are only hate-making because it is self-rejection to keep our truth a secret from the one who is inside our body! -
andora said on Sep 21, 2008....
making self-rejection the signpost of love is a terrible disease!
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